The man proposed and took it back a year after we started going out. It cut me deep, but at least i could understand that he wanted to see what it would be like after we lived together before making that commitment.
We've been living together now for two years and all that time he's been like, ooo one day i'm going to marry you, let's have a baby (i have implanon and having a child has to be planned so i can get it out), let's buy a house together.
But anytime I've said yes, I want to take this to the next level, i truly love you he finds some excuse to not go through with it, generally blaming it on me, "i'm not sure your ready", "i don't think that you'd cope", "you need to start apologizing when you do something wrong" (i always apologize, even when i know its not my fault.
Last night he said he wants to get married in two years time, so i said fine, promise me. and he was like "i promise" and i said, "no, promise so that my family and friends know that you're committed to me" and then he was like, "i have to think about it" and then this afternoon after work when i said, "did you think about it" he said "yes, but i'm really not ready yet." so i said, very nicely, though i was trying not to explode, "what will make you ready" and he said "money and security".
we have money and security by the way. we even have a 20 year life plan thanks to him, because he said that that was our issue so we sat down and worked it out.
now he's f*cked off to the pub and i have no friends to talk to coz i moved to this sh*th*le of a town to be with him and i'm so very tempted to make an ultimatum... surely after 3 years together he should know if he wants a future with me and be able to make a commitment to me. and i'm afraid that if i hang around waiting for another two years than he still won't be ready and i'll have wasted the prime of my life.
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