I'm not a shy person, when I'm comfortable, at home, or with friends people I'm comfortable with I'm very assertive, and voice my opinions etc, I've got female friends, about 11 of them, not been out with none, but all my other mates have, I mean I'm actually good looking and cute, and if I lost my belly and toned up I would be really hot, but that's just a bonus, I'm loosing weight to help me feel better, but I am a very adventerous, fun, exciting, and cool person, sometimes people are all worked up etc, and I can just sit there and be cool and logical, I suppose that's my aquarian side, but I have shyness around girls, I've know my female friends for about a year know, and not gone out with any of them, there's been one girl we just clicked talking on msn all the time, she though I was wonderful, but It was at the friends stage, another two girls I meet before with some other mates, we know them when we were little, that day I made them laugh for the whole day, one girl gave my all the signals, and my complete inexperienced with girls made me not get her, and another girl even said we fancied each other!.
It's wierd because I have moments, all my female friends "love" me, they think im cute, sweet, funny, nice, good looking, sometimes I can just make them laugh, and alot, but 1on1 or when it's personal I just dont know what to say, it just hits me, I just can't continue a conversation, I mean i just don't what to talk about with them, I'm not really one for small talk, but saying something I like about travel, military, news, occasional politics, interesting things like space, conspiracies etc, but If I talk to them I'm taking they just wouldn't really know what to respond with, but then small talk like music, how you been is to me gossipy, and I listen and like music but I almost never find it something to talk about, also I can never express myself, I mean i love travel, mysteries, truth finding, adventure etc, but sometime they want to have a party just friends, while I prefer going to some nice more classy one with loads of new people.
I know it sounds like Im going on, but I'm just really in a bit of a problem here, How can I express myself like who am I without anything in the way, How do i start and continue conversation with new girls and my female friends
Thanks
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