Sister hate or jealousy?

Question

My parents were divorced when i was 6 and my sister was 3. 2 years later my dad had another kid with his new wife. I really love my brother a lot. 6 years ago my mom meet a guy and got pregnant and when this guy found out he abandoned her and my mom had my beautiful gorgeous little sister and to me shes everything her and my other sister are my whole world. But 2 years ago my step mom had a baby-girl and shes 2 now. I went to see her for the first time in like a year and I felt weird and I don't know why i know i feel two things

I just feel like crying because she has my dad and I didnt get to have him for that much time and my sister either and i know it sounds bad but that's how i feel

and i guess im scare to love her as much as i love my other sisters i dont know if i can love her that much i guess i have some resentment or bitterness

when i got home i felt like i betrayed my sister and it felt weird and i started to cry

I just want to know how i can deal with it please!

Answer 1

will you should not feel bad maybe she was rubbing it in to much just talk to her next time and tell her how you feel maybe she needs comforting too.

Answer 2

Well its defintaly not hate or jelousy im sure you care about this sibling as well you just need to get to know her try communicating with your family they will understand also if you give her a chance you will see that its your father not being there for you when you were younger that your mad at not her .

Answer 3

tell ur father that u feel this way. and it seems to me like u are afraid to care for someone when constantly people in ur life keep leaving. maybe you're afraid to care for her cuz ur afraid to get hurt?