I'm 17, a senior in highschool. I met this guy online who's 19. We've been talking for a couple years, and we've met in person before and everything. I really think I love him, and he feels the same way. I'm trying not to get into details, but none of my friends know or anything. I didn't MEAN to meet him. I just somehow did. I don't want to tell my friends because they'll think it's weird or something, idk. Anyways, it's made my "real" life depressing. I'm so bored with it. I have a lot of friends, and I've been asked out by many guys but I just don't want to. I just don't care. My parents keep pressuring me to do a sport "you'll regret it, blah blah" I tried sports, and didn't like it. I did soccer for 5 years! I just hate everything about my life. it's so uneventful, and even though I'll be able to just go away to college and push away the past, I don't know what I'm going to do until then. How do I not feel so lonely and sad all the time? all I ever look forward to is talking to this guy. We're actually going to meet up again next Friday. I know it's kind of hard to get what I'm saying, but I guess I just hate the way things are going in my life. Nothing ever works out in a way that makes me happy. Everything is always okay, but it's never GREAT. This guy though, he's great, but the stuation we're in is horrible, bcause he lives 4 hours away, ad I don't know what to do. I hate crying every single day, but I can't help it. What's wrong with me, andhow can I not be so sad?
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