so today i had a bad day. and it was getting to me. so theres this girl on my bus and she is really annoying. She's 13 and i'm about to be 15 [we are in high school] and i act more mature than her. she gets the most annoying when she craves her nicotine and gets hyper and thats when i feel like punching her. not really but i think you know what i mean. anyways she kept imitating what i was saying and i was showing my friend who sits next to me on the bus a really funny text and the girl who smokes wanted to be all nosey and look at my text. and i said no. and she kept irritating me. its a long story. so i got mad and i cussed at her and told her to chill and get off the bus and have a smoke in order for her to calm down since thats all she does. and she's a bit odd. and she skips school and goes to the gas station with all the crack heads and does whatever it is they do down there. so anyways i may have said a few strong things to her. and its not like me. i've never lost my temper like this before. i even scared myself, kinda. and i'm usually just the innocent girl whose never cussed before and all that. but well today it changed. and i think i critiqued her way too much. i don't know if it has to do with the fact that i know someone who does drugs and stuff who has it bad and may never get his life together and i don't want to see her turn into him? maybe its just tough love. i don't know. but the thing is that i really feel bad about what i said. and i don't know if i should let her know i'm sorry. even though i don't want to. or just ignore her and not say another word to her. please help me out. i'm never like this. i don't know what got into me. i know i was irritated from earlier. but i know i wasn't taking anything out on her. just try and tell me what the right thing to do is. and if i need to apologize how can i do it? i don't think i can ever look at her again, because of what i said. i'm just not that type of person whose ever hurt someone.
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