So low, i cant think at all?

Question

i really want to die, and i tried, but didnt realise how much stuff you had to take to do it, and i ran out, i dumbly asked how. but they said i was pathetic and i know they're all right.

i can't control my thoughts anymore, i seem to have two in my head, one urging me on, telling me how wonderful and good i am if i die then leave everyone in peace, and the other who knows somethings wrong.

i feel so pathetic, so low, i don't think anyone could make me feel any worse if they tried.

and now i can't die because not enough, i feel worthless and good for nothing as well.

whats wrong with me? i have an assesment next week. But whats wrong with me? i feel so pathetic, i feel like i'm possesed and something else is inside me.

dnt be mean, right now i can't deal with anything. so don't respond if you cant be nice. just what is wrong?

Answer 1

well these feelings will pass and you will look back and think its great to be alive so many young ones wanting to live and would love to be you  look at life keep your face towards the sun that way the shadows are always behind you   ,,,,best wishes sent to you.  

Answer 2

maybe youre just stressed out about your assesment......

Answer 3

this happened to me and i know what your going through, you will get better but you need to try(i tried to kill myself 9 times and im still here i guess im bad at). But let me put it this way, the reason you ran out of stuff to kill yourself was because your not supposed to die yet. Go to your assesment and try and find someone else to support you, maybe a friend or a family member. Ask them to help you with the proccess of getting better, some one you can call whenever you need to. It would be better to have more than one person to talk to. there is something bothering you, and it would be best if you tried to work through what it is. For me it is easier to know why i dont feel like i should than to wonder.

You really need to go to this assesment, and dont be afriad to ask questions.

i hope this helps, God Bless

if you need some one to talk to then im me at midnightsauthor (yahoo)

im pretty much online all the time and we can talk about what ever you want or need to.