i feel really like out of place right now, almost isolated even, like my head dont stop thinkin about stuff all the frikin time, and i get emotional at night especailly when im watching movies and i just feel all over the place. im like alone in my head, i talk to friends, my closest friends about whats troubling me, and ive been owrrying for weeks about my mental health but i cant help but feel either they arent interested or they are in denial, they are always like everythings ok your ok theres nothing wrong with you, but they arent inside my head and they have no idea how much frustration it causes me so why whenever i talk about something serious they go into denial and say you are ok when im clearly not!
im just really stressed lately, im always getting stressed but ive been feeling this way a couple of weeks.because i been worrying too much i guess.
its hard to find people to talk to, im young theres not many people out there, friends just pass it, and my parents i talk to them because i get alot of tension around my head like massive headaches that lat most of the day which i think is due to stress and their like whatever. my friends and teachers show concern about my behaviour and emotions and they are aware of the impact im having in school and i told them what my friends said and yet they passed it, i feeli cannot have a serious conversation with anyone. i also feel that if i did just ocme out straight that i think i have a problem that my parents would feel bad and blame it on themsleves or just deny deny or even if they rejected me for it, i mean parents must fear this and think to themslevs what kind of parent would i be if my kid needed that kinda help, i mean im sure most would be devastated eventhough i know most parents would support, im sure mine would as my mum has gone through depression and panic attacksand my dad has dealed with some stuff with his brother being murdered so im sure they would support me but its just that fear actually admitting it to someone that scares me.
i almsot feel like i should jusut let it happen until it is noticeable and someone tkes action but i cant keep waiting because i cant wait, my patience tolerance sucks and if i cant get out there and do something with parents/friends or without i am going to go MAD!
just want some advise or someone to talk to please, it would help so much
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