Somtimes I think about how I would commit suicide if I did it?

Question

But I am not sure if I would want to for the attention or if I would really want to do it. I have been depressed for fifteen years. I am on meds now though. Doing somewhat better but still have those bad days and today of course if one of them. I feel I need to prove to people something IS really wrong with me but not sure how. That when I have a bad day it IS bad and I cant just "snap" out of it. What can I do? When we go to the cemetery to visit my husbands dead family I can only think of how peaceful they are and how their worries are over with and how nice that would be for ME. Is that a bad or suicidal thought?

Answer 1

You need to see your doctor. Antidepressants can actually increase suicidal tendencies. Do you have a therapist or is your family doc prescribing the meds? if you do not have a therapist, get one. In addition to meds you need to understand the mechanics behind your depression. "Snapping out of it", "pulling yourself up by your bootstraps", etc... is not possible even if family or friends think it is. We all have good days and bad days but if on your bad days your thoughts run about how getting dirt shoveled on your face would be pleasant....... it is passively suicidal. See your doc.

Answer 2

You need to talk to someone. Have you considered therapy. It can do a world of good for you. Cognitive therapy and antidepressants are very helpful with depression. You CAN beat this. Try not to think of death. Good luck.

Answer 3

Suicide is never a good idea. A lot more people than you think struggle with the thoughts. I have as well. But, I keep coming back to how selfish I would be to leave my family and friends. How would they react if I was no more. It may be that God has let you lead yourself down this path and is wanting you to let him lead now. In many ways, even now, God has held my hand and walked me through tough situations. I hope this helped.

Answer 4

Aha; I've had these same thoughts. It does seem like it would always be better. But think of the people you're leaving behind. I mean, It is very hard to just "snap!" out of those thoughts. But a day is a day and not all are gonna absouloutely perfect.

Answer 5

Suicide is not the answer! Suicide is plain cowardice. You end your life because you want peace and serenity but no. Human life is with pain, suffering and problems and that is what makes us human, and that is what will make us stronger. A life with pain, suffering, problems, sadness is much better than having not lived at all. I am manic-depressive myself but I have never ever thought of suicide, becoz yes, it is a bad thought. I just accept that bad things, sad things, ugly things are part of this world but I can overcome it, like you, you can overcome it. Everyone has their bad days, but not everyone ends it by killing himself.  

Answer 6

Killing yourself would not be the answer. Think all the people who truly miss you.  

Answer 7

Hopefully you are seeing a specialist a psychiatrist.  Your dose may need to be adjusted or you may need another medication added to your regimen.  I went to my primary care doctor first and she misdiagnosed me.  I went to a psychiatrist and things got better.  I used to feel suicidal and now I have not felt suicidal in over a year.

Answer 8

Yes you should not be suicidal.  Taking medication  might just help to make it worse depending on who you are.  I suggest, when you are having a bad day or something just remember that so many people's lives are always worse than yours.  Or remember that you are still living.  But if it is a mental issue, i suggest you go for an evaluation at the hospital, or even get a pycologist who might be able to get to the root of why u r feeling this way.  I am considering becoming a pycologist and i would luv to im you to help.-PLEASE DO!!!

Answer 9

You should talk to someone