Still panicking, still heartbroken, now abandoned/disowned... help!?

Question

So I know people are probably bored of listening to my c**p right now, but perhaps people I can't see might actually listen to me rather than the ones I can... does that make sense? I don't know... I'm still freaking out, so sorry if it doesn't.

My parents are disowning me. I tried to talk to them this morning, actually drove down to see them, and they completely blanked me. Well, I say blanked - my dad threw a load of stuff I still have at their house at me and called me... several things. My sister won't talk to me - I have no idea what I've done, maybe I was right and maybe somehow this situation is my fault? Maybe I should have come out earlier?

My ex turned up at like, 6am, with all the stuff I'd given him/kept at his place, and just threw it at me. Honestly, I'm getting sick of having stuff thrown at me. I feel like somehow I should have seen this situation coming, and that I could have avoided it... but at the same time I have no idea how.

Can someone tell me why people, especially over 30's, are so against g**s? I feel like I'm dirty or something, and yet I've never done anything that's unlawful or whatever. My ex even accused me of raping him - which, I've never done, for the record - practically screamed it at me, and now my flatmates won't talk to me, because they think he was telling the truth, no matter what I try to tell them.

My life is falling apart. Would it be better if I just like, ended it, and then no one would have to even think twice about me. I'm sorry for putting this down on you guys but no one I know seems to want to talk. The only friend who talked briefly last night just told me to 'get off my a** and stop being suck a male b****,' whatever that means.

I'm tired of feeling this way - and it's only been less than twelve hours.

Answer 1

y is ur ex angry at u ur a guy hes a guy y would he accuse u ov rape? anyway some ppl just need time 2 get use 2 it. this is new 2 them aswell. its just a schock, they will get ova it eventually

Answer 2

I didn't read your other questions, but I'd just MOVE away and try to put those people behind you. Moving is better than suicide. Trust me.

Answer 3

whoa, suicidal? there's always hope you know, and you end that when you give up. people in the 30's and up are like that because before, it's not like this, not this open, things like this are like taboo. so maybe they're not easy or comfortable with this topic. some may have not had a friend or acquaintance like you before so they don't know what to do, or how to treat you. maybe they're just careful that what they say may offend you. and for your parents, of course, no one expects that their son might turn out to be something else. they've had expectations that you'll be like this and now you can't fulfill it because they think your choice is a hindrance. but don't give up. you of all should be unique, creative. stand up and look at things more positively. and for your partner, there are other, many understanding and loving people. free yourself, from the past and from all the burdens. and you can see life in a new way. just have faith.

it's only been less than 12 hrs, things just don't get fixed or balanced in such a short time. have more patience, please. find people who are like you and learn from their stories on how they made it and goodluck.

Answer 4

First of all no, u shudnt end it because that's who u are, if they cant accept it then too bad. just tell urself that u dont need ppl like that, who doesnt understand for u being who u are and try to live on and do good in life. Ur ex, thats an ex, move on, more ppl out there. Ur friends, if they dont talk to u, get new friends. Get a job and make everything new, it's hard but it's better than just end it. It's stupid. no one will care if u die, they might cry a bit then forget about u. live on and prove to them ur the shet and u can make it witout them. u kno wat i mean?