Struggling with severe depression?

Question

My life- at only 12 years old- is utterly and completely wasted. I have spent the past year of my life cutting myself and crying myself to sleep and having thoughts of suicide. It's too much too handle. You might think that my life is simpler than I'm making it sound, but it's seriously horrible. I think I'm have bipolar disorder 2. I know I probably am not bipolar, but the past few weeks I've been up and down. Deep in the blue, cruising gray, invincible, and even a time or two I felt normal. And my feelings are never explainable. I've been struggling with depression for awhile. To top it off, my parents are getting a divorce and it kills me. I know tons of kids have divorced parents, but I never knew it could strike me so hard. I really want to get better. But no one knows about ANY of this and I don't want them to. My parents and my friends don't know what I'm going through, and I'm afraid that I'm a huge danger to myself...What can I do to get better without opening up to the world?

Answer 1

The bible says "Go to doctors." NOT it says "God helps those who help themselves." See page below with lots of good info on helping depression. Also see page with advice for teen girls with help for cutters who do cutting.

Answer 2

You need to find the good in every day. find what makes you happy and do it.  stay strong.  dont diagnos yourself.  build self confedence. dont hang out with people who put you down. reach out for help. i watched my best friend shoot himself in the head. and i saw the impact on many people, people that he didn't know would care. a life cant be wasted at 12 there is so much more. it is what you make it. if you keep telling yourself your deppressed you will be depressed! opening up to one or two friends is not opening up to the world i wish my friend would have said something.

Answer 3

Sweetheart, at 12 years of age your life may seem wasted but it is not. You feel that way because there is so much going on and you probably think you have  no control over it and, with some issues, you are right. You have no control over your parents getting a divorce. I want you to know it is not your fault. It is hurting you because I'm sure you love both of them and this must feel like the end of  the world to you.

You need to talk to someone you can trust. Talk first to a counselor at school and that person can get you the help you need. This is all confidential so don't worry about opening up to the world. I know you want to get better and you will. There are times when we all need a little help along the way. Being up one day and down the next does not necessarily mean you are Bipolar. We all have days like that and it is normal. However, cutting yourself is hurting you and why do you feel the need to do that? Please don't because it makes me feel sad. You are only 12 years old and there is so much out there just waiting for you. So much to make you happy and enjoy life. You will do things that will make you proud and your family too. We just have to get you through this bump in the road. You can do it, I know you can.

May I say for one so young you write an intelligent letter? I would have thought you were much older. You express your feelings  beautifully and your grammar is excellent. Well done dear. I am proud of you. Things will get better for you, trust me.

Answer 4

Step 1: Ensure your emotion is controlled daily. Don't over reacted, stay calm and don't get worry easily

Step 2: Think before your action. Don't repeat her past experience on herself. Remind herself from time to time.

Step 3: Be confident to yourselves. Remember everyone is the winner. "Only One sperms out of millions fertilize an egg"

Step 4: Get a group of close friends to share your experience and get some activities that would occupied your time

Step 5: Increase scope of life. Meaning that she should involve in more social activities like dancing, outing and others.

Step 6: Put a rubberband on the wrist. If there is a negative thought, Tighten the rubber band and release it. Hence the effect of the pain would be able to reduce the possibility of negative thought.

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Good Luck.

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Besides, If you have more psychological problem, please write to me at

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Answer 5

First of all I'm sorry you are feeling this way and going through this at such a young age. Maybe you can try talking to a school counselor which will remain between you and them or a doctor because there is patient doctor confidentiality. I think that could really help you.

Answer 6

First, breathe...

It will be ok. You need immediate support and help, so maybe opening up to your parents is the first thing to do. You need to stop everything else and get help as soon as possible, no matter how badly you feel

Ive pasted sites from the Suicide Hotline, sometimes it helps to talk to someone else, and then other sites as well.

Hun, I may not know you, but what i do know is that if i did i wouldn't want to see you said, or cutting yourself, i wouldn't want you talking about suicide. I hope you don't consider suicide and option. I hope things work out and that you check out the sites i pasted. You can always email me  from my profile page.

The last link is a great site that you can talk to someone about the issue with your parents divorce. Remember its not your fault, and it will be fine.

Take care ...and i hope things work out for you :)