Well, I'm currently finishing up high-school here in Canada, (taking an extra semester plus half a year off) and the daunting task of choosing my future has snuck up on me. What's the problem?
I don't really know what I want to do.
I get pretty good grades in school, and have a very broad set of interests. I can get into decent Universities, and any junior colleges. I just don't know what I want to do!
I've always had an interest in writing. I really enjoy writing fiction. I've toyed with the idea of being a screenwriter, or write for television/film, but alas, this is not a very "traditional" route, and my parents, peers, guidance counsellors, teachers all insist that I have some sort of backup or safety net. This is the kind of thing I find discouraging. I completely lose confidence.
Journalism was another option, because I like writing. But I just don't seem 100% enthused about it either.
My sister is an English major, who wants to go to teacher's college, and I guess that could be another option. Haven't really thought about it too much, though.
I don't want to make a decision, and eventually regret it down the road. This is a pretty big fear of mine.
For some reason, I'm entirely focused on the "final outcome" (ie. employment) of my education. I don't know why, but I become stressed when I can't perfectly plan everything, future-wise.
All my friends are going off to University, taking broad arts or science courses. They have no real idea what they want to do with their life, but they all seem quite content and generally laid back about it; trusting that by "going with the flow", everything will eventually work out. Why can't I think like this? Why do I always get so stressed over **** like this?
Bottom line, I want to do something I love, but I don't know what that is yet, and the clock is ticking...
Please, any advice, is very appreciated.
Thanks,
Shane
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