I'm confused;
(scenario)i keep missing the bus, so my mom keeps punishing me with really bad things in hope that ill learn my lesson(she charges me $50 each time,gives me chores,and grounds me) i miss it about once a week, but still,you would think id learn my lesson after like
-the first time.but i don't! no matter what i do(getting up earlier,preparing the night before,keep watching the clock)
its not like i wanna miss the bus,because I DONT!
im not sure what my problem is-being tired,mellow,lazy
then i thought mabey i subcontiously enjoy suffering/pain-because thats what i get from this-which leads to stress build up,ect and what does that lead to? stress management...and how do i usually deal with that emotional overload? Cutting...(i know its bad and usually try to resist the urge)
so do i miss the bus as a sub-contious excuse to cut?
or mabey im just lazy...im not sure, but thats my theory anyway
I KNOW I HAVE PROBLEMS-were past that point
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