Suicidal thoughts, 17 y/o, no money for psychologist?

Question

Hi, im 17 in highschool. and have suicidal thoughts, ive had the thoughts for about 2 years now but for the whole time, the thoughts werent very serious until recently, its gotten a little bit worse. Im pretty sure that my problem is social anxiety and lack of social skills. Ive talked to my parents about it, but since they dont know english and my korean is not great, it was hard for me to describe my problems to them and they dont believe it is necessary for me to see a therapist or something, they just tell me to be strong and overcome it myself. My parents are also worried about the money also, money is REAL tight in my family, almost cant afford for a $100 a hour therapy session. and believe me, its not like i didnt ever try to overcome it myself, ive tried everything i could. I even considered that im just overreacting to a little problem but its leaded me to no where but suicide thoughts. I have seen a therapist before using my own money, but i dont think he was helping much so i stopped going, cost me atleast $500. Hard to find a job because of my social anxiety and lack of social skills. What should i do? Find another therapist? please give me some advice. Im thinking of just joining military after highschool so i could make money to get help. but i dont know if i could hold on for that many years to come. Thanks for everyone for reading all of this. appreciate it.

Answer 1

i will be thinking of you and hope that you do get help.  there is a lot of help out in the world today for what you are describing.  don't give up!  you are still 17 and very young.  i just graduated high school and had the worst time but believe me it will get better!  go talk to a social worker at your school if you do not confide in anyone else.  that is where you could begin.  in most cities there are places for teenagers to talk to someone for free or for little cost.  if you could ask a school social worker about those places that might be good.  get the help because there are miracles in this world!  

Answer 2

go talk to your high school guidance counselor--tell him everything you put down in y/a.........they can hook you up with professionals for free

to help you become more socially adept buy and read this book

how to win friends and influence people by dale Carnegie...

the book was written in the 40's and has been updated several times, it saved my life in the late 60's.........

Answer 3

bravo to you for having the courage to put your feelings here and share.

when you share here, people like us are already hearing you.  For you to feel hope, the way is to go to your community helpline where ready help is available at no cost most of the times.  You are just 17years old, bright bright future ahead of you.  Skills will be picked up along the way, life is a learning curve, when there is down, there will definitely be UP.  I'm sure you would love to experience the UP just right ahead of you, only if you are alive, then you can experience the UP.  Go on, call the helpline and convey how you feel.  GOOD LUCK!

Answer 4

Your county has an office of mental health.  They can and will help you regardless of your ability to pay.  

Answer 5

It's hard to stop, i know.

It's almost as if suicide becomes an obsession, once you go in deep enough.

My advice would be to try and fill your life with positive influences - don't focus so hard on being perfect, don't try and bite off more than you can chew, And enjoy what you can.

If your problem is indeed social anxiety, just remember that it's something worth telling people if they ask you about your behaviour.

One thing though; Knowledge is power, you should always be willing to learn more.

Answer 6

Try a large Church.  They usually have psychologists.

Answer 7

maybe go to a school counselor? i'm not sure...hang in there. its worth it i promise

Answer 8

i am very sorry for what you are going through. i know how it is b/c i have been there a few times myself.  i know how expensive doctors are too.  but i can afford one right now.  anyway, the other things i have going for me are the following:  close friends, loving family, a hobby to which I am devoted, faith/religious beliefs, etc.  try to arm yourself with these coping methods/outlets until you can find someone who can help you for an affordable price or even for free.  best of wishes.  you are NOT alone.

Answer 9

just give in it will be all over soon.....

Answer 10

Hey There,

Sometimes it is hard and my sister has had the same problems in her life. The good things is there IS people to call and you can talk to them, for free. You can also get into the system where you can get mental health help for free from your county, etc. Also a good thing to do sometimes is to trust a friend and talk with them. You can also find some sites on the internet. The one thing I would not do is enlist in the military with thoughts of suicide. Its a rough world there and I think you should straighten out the thoughts in your life first. I think you will be OK and God bless you for the strength you have to even talk about the problem. I hope that you find all the services that you are looking for. How about a school guidance counselour? Just go out there and search, I think you will find you don't always have to roll out the big bucks. Best of luck!!

Answer 11

I want you to think about this for a minute.  Think about how you would feel if you would one day have a child and that child committed suicide.  Would you feel like it was your fault?  It is probably very hard for you at this time as it seems you don't have really anyone to go to.  Find deep within yourself the power to overcome this.  I have all my faith in you you're only 17 you've got so much to live for.  I'm not a therapist by any means, but I think about life a lot and think what it would be like to have my mom die or dad and it's horrible.  Please don't put your family through this but most of all don't put yourself through this.  Don't do this to yourself you have all the power you need if you feel you desperately need a therapist you could mow lawns for money.  Overall do what you feel is right for you if it's going to a therapist or talking to someone you trust.  There's always a second option.

Answer 12

1-800-SUICIDE

Answer 13

I don't know much about therapist but its not worth it at all to commit suicide. i probably cant be much help but joining the military might make it worse. think about that it would do to your parents. i know they would be devastated. I know three people who did and not only did it destroy their parents but everyone one at school was so sad and upset. I hope i can be some help cause trust me its not worth it.