Suicide And Cutting Questionn

Question

Lately I have been thinking a lot about death and suicide. I am happy at times and then miserable and depressed at others. I have written suicide notes and almost attempted suicide when I was home alone about a month ago. What stopped me was knowing that suicide is the easy way out and is very selfish of me. Is this normal or do you think something is wrong here?

If there is something wrong, how do I tell my parents? They think I am happy and perfect. I am in a good home with tons of love but it seems like something is missing... Could it be that the guy I think I love doesn't know I exist?

I have also been cutting lately. I haven't ever been like this, as for cutting and suicide thoughts. I don't know what to do...

Answer 1

well do you think this is normal? you really should get some help this is a horrible path to go down...i would just sit your parents down and tell them how u feel maybe u are bipolar or depressed but things are obviously not right and asking them for help is the first thing u should do..doing nothing is not an option hope u get help

Answer 2

I used to suffer from clinical depression & severe anxiety. And I never knew what was wrong with me.  I would sometimes wonder about in almost my own trance for days.  I constantly thought about committing suicide & tried to suffocate myself almost everynight, tried to hang myself etc..it got so bad that I told my mum and she dragged me to the doctors.  They put my on Prozac right away.  I stayed on it for 4 years & still sometimes have my up's & down's to this day - but you should definately know that this is not your fault for feeling this way, it could certainly sound like you are suffering from depression & dont know perhaps know it.  Please go see your doctor about it & let them know you feel this suicidal. Please takecare with yourself, you can always get anti-depressants & see someone about it - they will help correct the unbalance (if its that) also the cutting could be an anxiety thing aswell.  I never personally cut but I was anorexic aswell as suicidal & tried to free my pain through starvation.  It sounds like a secondary thing to control the depression - hope you get some help soon!!! :)

Answer 3

Believe me, some years ago, I had the same thoughts for a girl. I was loving a woman that didn't accept me as a lover. Finally, I didn't commited suicide because:

a)  I didn't want to panish my parents for something that they didn't deserve it.  Can you imagine how they woul'd felt if I had done it?

b)  I felt like this (commiting suicide) because I loved bad my girl and she didn't like me as lover.  He liked me as friend.  We could go out, but only as friends.  So, because I LOVED HER A LOT, I didn't want to punish her.

I had told her that if we couldn;t be together, I would have commit suicide, and she -my love- answer me that if I loved her, I would never do something like this.  That would cause her lot of pain and proved that I didnt loved her.  She was true. If I commited suicide it would be so selfish and indicating that I wouldn't love either my Love, either my parents.

So I didn't commit suicide.

Now, if the guy ignores you, doesn't matter.  Ignore him too.

If you love him, you can love him from distance.  I love her (the woman I said you) still but we are not together.  Now I have an affair with another woman but still love my first love. We can not be together.  So what?  I will live, loving her to my last breath.

      

Answer 4

If you don't feel like you can talk to your parents, then please find another trusted adult to talk to. You need some help. Everyone goes through depressed times. It's how we handle it that matters.

Answer 5

The most precious gift you will ever recieve is life...there are those who suffer a lot more than you and would love to have the things you have, you aren't selfish, you just need help, please seek professional help. Remember your life may be better someday

Answer 6

Remember that suicide is a permanant soluttion to a temporary problem. Please get tested for bi-polar disease.

Answer 7

Talk to this guy, tell him how you feel, life goes on no matter what he says, you can always find another man, probably better than him.

If you think that this is selfish than think how you can live, talk to your parents as well, but be careful you can hurt them, don't tell them that you were going to commit suicide. Get over this, life is cruel sometimes but you have to be brave enough to get over things, you will find love...If you do something bad you will hurt your parents for the rest of their life, so don't be selfish, think about them and other people who care about you. Everyone once in a while feels that something is missing, that life is empty, that life sucks, but only the brave ones survive. Make some changes in your life, go out, talk to a friend, take a trip or something. If you sit all day and think about suicide it will only get worst so stop thinking about it. You have only one life and you have to live it!

Find a good therapist!

Answer 8

get help for it sooner rather than later, seriously.

try not to cut as u might ruin urself and regret it, or if people see the might think you are a loon....

i thought i was bipolar too but im not i have BPD which is worse. im always feeling suicidal and my arms look like rail way tracks...not pretty. if it is bipolar you can get meds to control it.

Answer 9

You really need to talk to someone, you need help!!  Even if it is the guy thing upsetting you, your reaction is not Healthy!  Please talk to your parents so they can get you help and you can be Happy!  xox

Answer 10

Lying to your parents that you are unhappy doesn't help, if you tell them they could help you because they love you. I have been a bit like this too. cutting myself, but thats about it.

Answer 11

I went through this same torture as a teenager and finally found a good therapist who helped me turn things around. If you can talk to your parents please do so. You can also always call 1-800-lifenet or 1-800-suicide to talk to someone who can help

Answer 12

You really need to speak to your parents or a councillor.. it isnt normal to be thinking that way!! Dont through your life away over a guy.. more times then none they arent worth it anyways.. Dont ruin the lives of the ppl that love you most!!  

Answer 13

I have been really depressed lately too and have thought of it but i thought of my parents and relatives and its not fair on them.

trust me  you have no need to kill yourself, why dont you try talkng to this guy you never know he may feel the same way.

dont kill your self you have your whole life ahead of you and you never know whats gunna happen in the future, and dont be so depressed , go out with your mates now and then have some fun you will feel tons better trust me.

hope i helped :)

Answer 14

Hi,  I feel your anxiety and pain.  I am there.  Perfectly happy to the outsiders and slowly dying on the inside.  It is not normal to have serious thoughts about suicide or to be cutting.  Ive also been this way for a while.  I started therapy a few months ago and urge you to do the same.  It may take you a few tries to find the right therapist, but it's worth it.  Truthfully, the feeling hasn't completely gone away but I am getting a better handle on my emotions and bringing myself back to reality when i need it.  You say you are in a good home but you feel like something is missing.... it's not the guy.  Because there are tons of guys out there and you cannot love a guy who doesn't know you exist because then that means you don't really know him as well.  Just what is on paper.   You may be looking for something to fill that feeling of something missing.  

The fact that you are reaching out, is a good sign.  You know something is off and you want to do something about it.  Just tell your parents you want to see a therapist and ask your counselor/doctor/mentor/someone you trust for referrals.

I hope you find the source of the empty feeling...