Summer holidays and i feel like c**p?

Question

well ive just got back from holiday and i go back to school in a couple of weeks, but i just feel down atm, almost as if i wanna cry but i dont know why.

i like being on my own but i just feel like kinda lonely. erm..well i liked this guy for months and well he dosent really like me, i get rejected all the time and it feels like i got no hope. i mean i havent really cared lately i mean i think well im fine without other people in my life, i have friends, i have my family and pets at home, so its not really about relationships, i guess i just dont have much of a connection with the people im around and it just makes me feel a bit wierd. ive been really detached from people lately.

this year ive been worrying non-stop all my exams i have to do but cant get my around, then my temper and that getting worse and alot of people have been concerned about me this year, i thought i was going psycho and crazy on everyone but i kinda know im not now, cz im not all bad, im a nice person, but i just dont always come across as if i care. ive been going out of my head the past few weeks because i think i have ocd and im too scared to talk to anoyone about it.

this year things seem out of control, my grades are slipping, i feel more alone, and i feel more whacko than i normally am. i mean my normality before all this was jumping around being hyper talking ALL THE TIME and id get the occasional bad thought, but now i cant stop thinking i dont know how to switch off and my sleep is always changing alot from 4hours one night to 12 another. things have changed alot this year, im always worrying thinking somethings wrong with me and i think to myself if im this obsessed then maybe i do have something wrong with me but never what i think. maybe im just a bored teenager who lacks a social life, or maybe this is growing up, but i dont like it one bit, i want to be as normal as i could ever be, because i was never normal but i was never this crazy.

this is mainly just to get all this off my chest but if anyone has any advise or something to say it would be nice to hear, unless you wanna insult me then im not in the mood for that.

Answer 1

no insults my dear, at least not from me. what I see happening to you is that you tends to pile up every little thing instead of ignoring them. everyone have obsticle in life, we can't avoid them. don't save them up. especially the ones we cant do anything about, as to the exams, do your best and no more. your grades are slipping because you are allowing yourself to get depress. clear your head shake off all the little troubles and just start living. nothing is wrong with you ,you are just one of those people who would like everything to go perfect, but they can't. nothing in life is perfect. don't worry, be happy.  

Answer 2

Your thinking is fairly good and you need one new friend who is like yourself. Try to see people in real groups where the outsiders are not accepted in the winners circle and they are in a struggle every day.