I have my mom in the same room as me.
My boyfriend of fours years taking some time to just work a lot and catch up on his bills, so that means seeing less of me (once a week if that). It used to be at least once every other day. Now I can barely catch him on the phone.
An okay job with people I used to hang with, but all of a sudden they are super flaky.
A dad in Florida who "promises" to come see me.
But I am alone. I want to cry. I used to think of my boyfriend all the time and needed him a lot and now Im lost for feelings, because he isn't there. I feel as if I'm loosing him with this temporary "space"
My mom hates me.
How can I manage without breaking? I feel like im not needed or wanted, so why be here right? Not talking about killing myself, im talking about existing to these people that show no interest in me. I want to be strong, but how do you do that when friends, family, and the love of my life isnt there for me. I have not had a conversation with someone in a long time (just sitting and talking and having a good time). I feel locked and I want to spill, but there is no one where there.
Im so lonely.
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