Taking action towards suicidal thoughts?

Question

I am bipolar and have been having a lot of suicidal thoughts for the past 4 months, all throughout the manic episode i had, the mixed one and now the depressive one.

I know I will NEVER kill myself, but things are getting worse and worse as time passes by, and even though I won't hurt myself, I feel that one day I am just gonna do it, without knowing or thinking about it. Is this possible for that to happen?

The reason I am scared is because I promised myself I would never flip out on my parents again and destroy things, but out of a fit of intense rage, I did it. Thing is it felt as though I was out of control, and now I am thinking I might again loose control and kill myself, IS THIS POSSIBLE? or as long as i know i wont EVER hurt myself , i wont commit the act?

Answer 1

When you are bipolar and feeling like that , it's time to get your meds adjusted .

Being bipolar is hard , life is hard , but being bipolar make life even harder .

It's possible for someone to kill themselves that are normal , and it's also possible to someone with bipolar disorder to do it also .

We all are like camels in life , you put too much burden in us and we crack and fall .

You just need a greater support base than other people , I am sure yahoo questions will help a little , but you need more than that .

Get your meds adjusted and talk to the doctor that does this for some help .

We all can crack so yes it is possible , we all have weakness and breaking points .

So knowing this , the people that get help are the ones that make it , its just a matter of allowing someone or asking someone to help you with the burden you are carrying .  

Answer 2

Hey friend, sorry you're going through this, I really hope that things get better for you.

In answer to your question, I would say yes, it is possible. Now, I am in no way a medical professional, I'm honestly just a teenager who's been through similar. I have depression and I've taken various medications for it, but I've have bad little episodes because of them. I'm not an aggressive person by nature, at all, I avoid conflict. But there have been a few times when I've gotten inexplicably angry, and went off into the whole shouting and breaking things bit. After the fit of rage it was like I was coming out of a coma, I hadn't realized that I had been so destructive. (I don't take medications any more so thankfully that doesn't happen now.)

But based off of that and other things I've seen and read, I think that if you went into a rage or a really depressive episode, something like that could happen, and even though you don't intend to hurt or kill yourself, you might do it without thinking about it. I think in some ways it's comparable to being drunk. Your judgment is impaired and you can't think about things as carefully.

That's my unprofessional opinion and I'm not sure if it was of any help but I hope all goes well for you and I really hope nothing bad happens to you.

[e-mail] if you ever want to talk

Answer 3

I read on a suicide website that the first thing to remember is that if you kill yourself, you won't be around to feel better.  struck me hard.  it's a good point.  you don't mention if you take meds or see a doc.  you need to.  find a good doc that listens to you and not just nods their head. try some meds and if things don't improve, tell the doc and tell him you want to try something else.  in todays age, there is no reason to feel as bad as you do.  meds help and they don't make you feel dopey or stupid, just more like yourself.

Answer 4

If you are questioning if you might kill yourself, the thought is in your head that you might.   Carrying these kinds of thoughts around in ones head is not a very pleasant experience.   Please talk to the doctor that made the bipolar diagnosis.  Four months is a long time to have suicidal thoughts in your head.  Please get some help.  Please stay safe.  Good Luck.

Answer 5

please see a doctor they arre the only ones who can help

Answer 6

Yes it is very possible. So talk your parents who will be able to help you more about getting help so you don't kill your self. That would be a shame if you committed suicide when not fully meaning to.  

Answer 7

your on an emotions roller coaster sounds like...who knows what you could do..don't take the chance because your not only hurting yourselft but Im almost posotive your parents don't want too bury their child.

Answer 8

Some people are reporting that they had severe mental problems from being unwittingly toxic / allergic to caffeine & theophyline.  They're in SO MANY foods & sodas (even certain orange, &, lemon-lime sodas)!  And, they are regulars on the diets at mental health hospitals!  Some people have their first mental symptoms after recieving a shot for anaphylactic shock, get sent to the psych hosp, & put on a steady diet of coffee & cocoa, and never get well...  So I thought I'd mention this, in case you might be one of these people.  It is something that very often builds up in a person.  But, after a while, their body just can't work properly anymore, & becomes highly sensitive to those chemicals---*& possibly others*.  The articles that I read are online:

Caffeine allergy Townsend Letter for Doctors and Patients    

http://findarticles com/p/articles/mi m0ISW/is_255/ai n6211932

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the 2nd & 3rd spaces each with one '_'

How Much Mental Illness is an Allergy to Caffeine?  

CAFFEINE ALLERGY: Past Disorder or Present Epidemic?,

by Ruth Whalen, Medical Laboratory Technician  

http://www doctoryourself com/caffeine allergy.html

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Dangers of Caffeine Intake

- Caffeine Induced Anaphylaxis, A Progressive Toxic Dementia

(with references)  by, Ruth Whalen, MLT, ASCP.  

http://www doctoryourself com/caffeine2 html

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There is also a book by the same lady, that says:

"You can be poisoned from caffeine, mentally ill from caffeine, and allergic to caffeine and *not know*!  Caffeine allergy causes 'ADHD' and all mental disorders"  

"Welcome to the Dance:

Caffeine Allergy, A Masked Cerebral Allergy and Progressive Toxic Dementia Caffeine and caffeine"  

Chapter 62. Delusions and Hallucinations  

http://www welcometothedancecaffeineallergy com/tablewelcome htm

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I also suggest sharing the following series of articles with your parents, & read it yourself:

Understanding Mood Disorders :

- Tormented Minds

- Living With a Mood Disorder

- Hope for Sufferers

- How Others Can Help  

http://watchtower.org/e/20040108/article...

And these are just for you:

You Can Find Help  

http://watchtower.org/e/20011022/article...

'Will God Forgive Me for Feeling This Way?'  http://watchtower.org/e/20011022/diagram...

What Hope for Today's Youth?

When Hope and Love Vanish---Then Return

http://watchtower.org/e/19980908/article...

Answer 9

yes, it's possible you need to chill out and smoke a bowl

Answer 10

It is impossible to say you would never do it. If your emotions become intense enough, the need becomes urgent enough, then there is the chance of you doing it. Especially if you have experienced past behaviour like this. I would suggst talking to someone you trust, often talking about things like that will mak you think about them more and you wil more likely be aware of your actions if you have discussed them beforehand.

Answer 11

Hello, although its not much help, I wanted to let you know that I was considering asking a very similar question today as well.

Some people say that meds will help, others say that counseling will help you get to the root of the problem, and others say that cognitive therapy is the way to go.   You might try talking to a mental health professional, as they will be able to define which path(s) are best for you.  

I personally think that, when mental illness or bad life experiences make a mess of your thinking patterns, it is going to take some kind of retraining to fix it.  

Answer 12

Please, I understand how you feel... I had wanted to comit suicide the past 7 months... Each day as time passes by I felt like I knew one day I'm going to actually do it. It had gotten so bad that I dropped out of highschool my last year. I just wanted to do it but my body wouldn't move. know one knows about it but for some reason i'm really happy that I can share this with you. That feeling when you get into a really lonely emotional state and start questioning everything in your life..  But Now I'm in a much better state than before.. In a way this feeling and experience had made me a much more stronger person.. I've decided that I need to hang in their and keep moving forward no matter what. I now have a completely different perspective on life.. I'm not scared of dying anymore but before I'm gone I'd like to enjoy life and cherish every single moment I have of it. Whether your going through hard and tough times I hope you'll become a stronger person and see the good things in life... I'm now currently going back to finish school and then off to college.. No matter what, keep moving forward!......