Terrifying dream, what does it mean?

Question

my dream started with me and ryan from the oc dating. then it changed and i dont rememeber how, but he began raping me.

then all of he sudden it switched to a guy i slept with lately and someone else but i couldn't see what he looked like.

the dream felt as though i could actually feel them hitting me, pushing me around, it was so.. real.

i woke up, but was somehow still dreaming, i could see blurs of my room (possibly from crying in my sleep) but i couldn't move at all, yet i was moving around so much as though i was trying to fight them off.

i was lying on my side and it felt like someone was behind me, touching and raping me.

then it felt like the person behind me was choking me, i couldn't breath and kept gasping for air, i tried to fully wake up. but i just couldnt.

i woke up finally cause i screamed in my dream so loud because it just felt like i got REALLY hurt.

i woke up shaking, out of breath, heart racing, still crying

what does this mean? i'm so scared! :(

Answer 1

To dream that you have been raped, suggests a sadistic expression of sexual desire. You may be expressing an unconscious desire to be violated, conquered, or forced into forbidden territory. It also indicates vengeful feelings toward the opposite s*x. Alternatively, it suggests that you are feeling violated in some way. Something or someone is jeopardizing your self-esteem and emotional well-being. Dreams of rape are also common for those who were actually raped in their waking life. To dream you are being verbally or physically abused, forewarns that you will fall into the hands of an enemy. To dream that someone is choking you, indicates that you are suppressing your emotions or that you may have difficulties in expressing your fears, anger, or love. Consider the phrase "being all choked up". Alternatively, you may feel that you are being prevented or restricted from freely expressing yourself. Choking dreams are often a fearful experience and it is not uncommon for dreamers to awaken from them.  

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