That kind of killed my spirits...?

Question

I'll try to be brief all though it never happens -_-;.

.Theres a girl Ive been friends with for 11/16 years of my life

.Three years ago I developed feelings for her

.Last summer I distanced myself from her to hide my feelings

.I havent spoken to her since febuary

.She lives 45 mins away near my summer house

.I was at the house in july and didnt see her because :

.I was and am afraid to call her or see her for some reason

.Im scared ****less since Im going back for three days sometime this week and I dont want to not see her.

.Ive been up until 3-5 am thinking about her eachnight since april.

I just need advice...or what you would do. Or similar stories or words of encouragement. Or rationalizations or just give me a thought to stave away the regret just for tonight so I can go to bed by 2 am!

Thats the summary of my predicament right there.

And on thursday night im going back to my summer house. That gives me friday,saturday and sunday to see her. But im terrified to call her. My mom kept asking about her during the summer and I never really answered...So if I suddenly told my mom she was coming over she may ask some stuff so what I would do is go about a mile down the street to the video store and ask her to meet me there.Then we could hang around town and THEN head to my house. Again the only issue there is.

Im too afraid to call her for some reason that I dont know.

And this IS my last chance...

So here are my questions:

.What should I say when I call

.how can I work up the courage to call

.What could I possibly be afraid of cause I dont know

.Should I talk to anyone

.Should I forget about her

.Should I meet her at my house or the video store or on the road?

.WHAT SHOULD I DO IN GENERAL??????

Is what ive said before. (YOUR STILL FREE TO ANSWER THAT)

So I got up (at 11:23 am no less -_-) Said **** this. Grabbed the phone dialed the number and waited. Ring one: nothing Ring two: Nothing Ring three: nothing Ring FOUR : NOTHING.... So I left a message on the machine. But if I remember correctly it is in their BASEMENT where no one ever really goes...

That really broke the morning F this im doing it atitude

Answer 1

from what I see from what I could read, you are obsessed with this girl. I say move on and find another one. Seriously, do you know how many girls there are in the world? Plenty to go around, and I guarantee you that there is one just as good or better than this one. This kind of needy, scarcity mentality is what scare girls away.

and don't listen to the poster below me and tell yourself you love her, that will **** you up so bad in the head and make things worse.

Answer 2

well you'll definitely choke up if you don't get this girl...its better to call her up... every time you fear calling her tell yourself that you love her... repeat this to yourself....a

when you call her tell hi how are you stuff and she'll definitely ask you long time?? tell her yes it has really been long time...but lets meet than we'll talk in detail... decide the venue and move on...

about your mom.. tell her that you needed sometime to be alone in summers but you miss a nice friend like her....