This is a serious question,no rude answers.?

Question

Wow,I haven't talked about this to anyone expect one person over the internet but this is a serious question.When I was about four or five or maybe even younger,it was thunder storming.I was and still am afraid of thunderstorms.Well my mom and dad were about to have s*x and they invited me in their room so that I wouldn't be alone in the living room with the thunderstorm.All I can remember is that it was very dark and something grabbed my leg as it looked like I was trying to get away.There is no way that this is a dream because it is too vivid and I keep thinking about it even though I am older.I remember it.Was I molested?

I was on the bed and something really did grab my leg.

For some reason,I now have a lot of sexual images in my head and when I m********e,I sometimes think of my dad for some reason.I don't know why?Everyday,I have sexual images of stuff.

I was about six when I started thinking sexual thoughts.

It was dark so they could have touched me inappropriately or something.

They WERE having s*x.

I seriously do not think this was a dream.

Answer 1

Well, maybe not.  Maybe you just associate sexual feelings with that memory, since you knew, or later realized, that they were having s*x.

Answer 2

It's understandable that the thunder scared you and you had a negative experience because of that. it could be that you might have overestimated the force with which your leg was "grabbed." When a person is nervous or scared, it is very easy to make negative generalizations in those situations. it could be that one of your parents pushed your leg but it might have seemed to you like they grabbed it.

I don't know how what really happened but the power of association of stimuli or events is extremely powerful in humans. This time, try and think of positive things when you m********e. This will created new more pleasant connections and override the old traumatic connections

Answer 3

This is a question best put to a trusted therapist... not a whole world of strangers.

Answer 4

Do the simple thing, Ask them. I can basically promise that they will say you were not.