I have had a little trouble lately. I have lost some jobs and now I'm getting help to try and find the reasons why and to keep me from quitting another one. I'm on medication for depression. I also have a mood stabilizer. I get severely depressed when I don't take them and still get a little depressed when I do. My boyfriend constantly blames me for my mistakes, even though I have asked him not to. I know that I have done wrong. I know it, but I cant go back and change it. If I could I would, and I wish he would just stop blaming me. We currently live with his parents, we moved away from all our friends and our life for 5 years to move across the state. I was wanting to do it at first but now that I'm here i have no friends. I'm lonely. My bf works all the time so he doesn't always have time for me and even when he is around we fight which is both of our fault. We have a son together and I am always the one to clean him up when he is dirty. Well I take care of him PERIOD. I love my boyfriend don't get me wrong he has many fine qualities. I'm just not happy where I am.
I'm thinking about moving back home with my mother. She lives close to where I did before. I have friends there. The only thing is I wont be happy there either. Ill miss my bf even though I'm not happy with him, he will miss his son and not get to see him as often as he would like. He loves that boy so much. I know that if I don't leave things will remain the same and we will continue to fight and have arguments, and I will not be happy. But if I move I wont be happy either.
If I do move ill stay with my mom long enough to get a job and save some money, then ill move in with my sister and her fiance. I was thinking about just going down for a couple weeks and seeing how it goes. I have left my bf before many times and always come back. There is no way he can move with us because he has a 1 year contract at his new job, and makes good money.
What should I do? Im so confused about everything. I just dont know what to do next.
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