This may be my last chance to fix something I caused. PLEASE HELP?

Question

I'll try to be brief all though it never happens -_-;.

.Theres a girl Ive been friends with for 11/16 years of my life

.Three years ago I developed feelings for her

.Last summer I distanced myself from her to hide my feelings

.I havent spoken to her since febuary

.She lives 45 mins away near my summer house

.I was at the house in july and didnt see her because :

.I was and am afraid to call her or see her for some reason

.Im scared ****less since Im going back for three days sometime this week and I dont want to not see her.

.Ive been up until 3-5 am thinking about her eachnight since april.

I just need advice...or what you would do. Or similar stories or words of encouragement. Or rationalizations or just give me a thought to stave away the regret just for tonight so I can go to bed by 2 am!

Thats the summary of my predicament right there.

And on thursday night im going back to my summer house. That gives me friday,saturday and sunday to see her. But im terrified to call her. My mom kept asking about her during the summer and I never really answered...So if I suddenly told my mom she was coming over she may ask some stuff so what I would do is go about a mile down the street to the video store and ask her to meet me there.Then we could hang around town and THEN head to my house. Again the only issue there is.

Im too afraid to call her for some reason that I dont know.

And this IS my last chance...

So here are my questions:

.What should I say when I call

.how can I work up the courage to call

.What could I possibly be afraid of cause I dont know

.Should I talk to anyone

.Should I forget about her

.Should I meet her at my house or the video store or on the road?

.WHAT SHOULD I DO IN GENERAL??????

Answer 1

Talk to her and tell her why you were avoiding her.  Just be honest.  If it's the last chance, like you say, and you don't do it, you'll always wonder "What if?"  What do you have to lose?  You're afraid of being rejected, but what's the difference?  You already cut her off before, so even if she doesn't have the same feelings for you you'll know that you tried.  And what if she does share your feelings and you never talk to her?  That's called "The one that got away."  Just call her!  It's not the end of the world and at least you can get it off your chest.  In any case after you explain why you were too afraid to talk to her, she'll know it's not because you're an ***, which is what she may think now.  At least explain yourself so she doesn't remember you as a jerk who suddenly dropped out of her life for no reason.

Answer 2

.What should I say when I call : well girls like to be told that theyre important, pretty etc. u get the idea. so tell her u miss her and can't wait to see her again. tell her bout the sleepless nights uve had bout her.

.how can I work up the courage to call : DUDE SUCK IN UR F****** BALLZ AND CALL. the hardest part in calling a girl is getting the number, dude ur like 80 % there by already having the nmber

What could I possibly be afraid of cause I dont know : ur just shy, or ur scared of rejection. but think about it , i bet you feel great when u see her, and if she dosnt wnat you, then rejection is part of that. its like you have to feel taht pain just to be able to feel that great feeling. so its kinda of a beautiful pain :P

Should I talk to anyone: lol dont talk to your mom bout girls, been there done that, not funnnn

Should I forget about her: pfsht... nooo

Should I meet her at my house or the video store or on the road? : on the road seems kinda trashy to me? meet her at the store or at your house.

WHAT SHOULD I DO IN GENERAL?????? : talk to more girls, it will develop into your senses to compliment and make them feel good after a while and then CA-CHING JACK POTTTTT

Answer 3

.call her dude!! she wants to talk to you; stop over thinking it.

.say hey whats up im gonna be at my summer house and i want to see you

.remember that if you dont call her you still suck just as bad as you do now but if you call her you will feel better about yourself no matter what happens.

.rejection/ her not sharing your feelings

.anyone you fell comfortable talking about that to

.NO!

.anywhere you feel comfortable. but not on the road. thats creepy. coffee shop maybe.

.remember that you're ******* awesome