This may sound funny but its very serious, Can you help me ?

Question

Lately (these last 2 yrs) I`ve been battling with a lot of emotions especially anxiety and depression, although not full blown episodes! I do self harm sometimes, it first started with small cuts and lately even some burns here and there!

Thats just a small background. But lately I`m scared of going into mania! I`ve been feeling really down and really want to cry but can`t! On the other hand I have gone out f my house waling around in a thong jumping about laughin whilst feelin extreemly bad about it inside!

I have personally thought of suicide by overdose of something ... even toilet cleeaner if that would work or slithing my wirsts with a razor blade!

Can anyone just give me any advice please?

Answer 1

Don't ever do self harm to urself not the best thing but im not that sure either cause ive never tried it and i wouldnt like to the way your feeling is fine maybe just try somthing new and exciting get a hobbie ay? and maybe u dont know u might feel better keep ur friends close they will help u keep ur head up =) if u need to talk to me send it to "[e-mail]" =)  

Answer 2

well I dont think I can solve your dilemma, but i can give you some words to listen too. It sounds like you could have mania or some other mental illness such as bipolar and manic deprresion. I however am not a doctor, just a man who has been through some of what you have. I have found that with therapy and truly allowing yourself to be ok with whoever you are, then you'll notice changes. Its you and you alone. No one else can truly change your emotions if you dont want them too. You can do whatever you choose. I know that last bit may sound crazy and preachy but im serious. I know how you feel, but there is a light at the end of the tunnel, so keep at it. And honestly, its not that bad going to talk to a professional. Most of 'em are pretty nice. I wish you the best of luck, and please try to realize that suicide is not the way out. There is a lot of life you have to live and many things to see and experience. Take this as a chnance to truly change yourself and your outlook on life. You'd be surprised what could happen.

Answer 3

Please, please see a doctor. You don't have to feel like this. There are medications that can help straighten out your brain chemistry, and counseling can help you control your feelings. I'm going through anxiety and depression too, and I know how scary it can feel. The more scared you are, the more anxious you become. It's a vicious circle, and a doctor can help you break it.  

Answer 4

Your erratic mood swings, - fits of Mania and Depression - indicate that you may have BiPolar Disorder - a treatable disorder - but if left untreated can cause you much pain and unnecessary angst.  Run do not walk to your dr. and describe to them honestly what you have just described here - this IS serious you need to be kind to yourself right now.