To paint or not to paint?

Question

This summer I was excited about getting back to painting after teaching for nine months. I have been doing this for many years. When I finally got into my studio I found it difficult to get into the flow. I am trying new things which are complex. I seem to have lost my purpose or meaning though or I have become disinterested.

I can live with that except there is one philisophical or psychological problem. I feel torn. Maybe there is some form of guilt. Lost time perhaps. Waisted time.

At any rate my question is: why do many of "we" humans get uncomfortable with ourselves when one side of our nature wishes to do something and the other nothing? Why not just not paint and feel fine with that? Why the torment?

People are torn about many things it seems. How does one decide finally which side wins out? Is there a philisophical category here?

Answer 1

paint

Answer 2

How about paint an abstract piece depicting your current difficulty with loss of purpose/loss of interest/creativity block.

You may be surprised where it leads you.

Best of luck,

~M~