for the past years i have been kinda upset. like two years ago i would get upset at least once a day, or every other day. last year it kind of slowed down. but this year i have gotten horrible depression, i would have people say or do things that would hurt my feelings and i dont know how to handel them, i would just blame it on myself, do stuff to hurt myself in anyway i could. (cut, hit my head on something hard, etc.) but lately its getting so bad that i end up crying at night and during the day, im so sensitive to everything and i dont know what. i havent been checked or tested for depression or anything. so i dont know if i had it. but my friend told me that there are two types. because now im starting to cry without the thoughts of things hurting me. for example: i used to think of my parents hurting me which would make me hurt myself. but now i dont think of that, i just hurt myself for the heck of it. my friend told me the two types are two completely different types of depression and ive been through both i guess. is that true? what do doctors do to test you? i want help. but i am scared to tell people, especially family. how do i tell a doctor? because this is getting bad. i dont know what a doctor can do, but im sick of being upset all the time, honestly. sometimes its getting to the point where i dont care, and i like the feeling. im confused. help anyone. answers to my questions would be helpful. thanks.
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