Ugh i'm so mad/sad/frustrated=/

Question

Ok so im only 13. So last night at 1 AM something i was in my room and i couldn't sleep my parents were sleeping and my older sister and brother so i knew why i couldn't sleep i was fine that day but at night i had alot of things bottled up in me and feelings i never tell anyone b/c i have nobody to talk to i have no friends. so i have a diary/journal on my laptop where i can write in i don't like writing i prefer typing. so then i write my thoughts down so i can relax and go to bed then im on the laptop ok? then my dad barges in the room and i try to hide my laptop b/c i didn't want him to see my thoughts and allso i had to turn off my laptop not save my journal and at that moment ALL of my feelings thoughts came back to me even more thoughts from other days b/c my dad just barged in and that got me mad so i knew i tried to start a fight with him b/c i was so mad i couldn't write any on my laptop ugh then he wouldn't leave and he slept on the floor of my room i just need to get all of it out but i can't get all my thoughts and feelings out writing them just helps me a little but i still have them bottled up i know my dad told my mom that i wasn't sleeping and i was on my laptop and i know they are going to yell at me today=/ but the thing is they don't know what i was doing they think i was chatting with my friend or something but i wasn't! i can't explain that i was on my journal writing b/c they won't understand they don't know english very well and ugh just everything i wrote down before came back and it hurts i have so many things bottled up inside me i had to leave the room i couldn't stand him sleeping there even though i said don't sleep there so i left to the kitchen and stayed there with all my thoughts thinking and crying then i went upstairs and heard them talk about my how dissappoiinting i am to them i really think i was an *accident* when they had me at 41 years old my eyes are swollen from crying so much and i hope i'm no dissappointment to them so today im desiding to tell my older sister what im going through i may look like a normal girl but really i just keep stuff inside bottled up=/

Answer 1

I wish I could hug your right now. I am so sorry you're going through such a crappy time in your life. I wish and I hope you can speak to someone in person. Have you tried writing a letter to your mom and dad about how you feel? Tell them exactly how you feel and don't hold back. Get those feelings out of your system. Put them on paper and if you hurt their feelings... tough c**p. Your feelings have been hurt long enough. Let them know how they're making you feel. Oh I wish I could give you a big hug. If any of my kids ever felt this way I would just die. Being a mom I would die knowing I made you feel like that. but on the other had I would WANT to know. Please write down how you feel and give it to them. I hope it makes you feel better.

You can email me if you need to talk honey.

Answer 2

I would better be able to give suggestion if I knew what you are so upset about! You keep saying that you are mad and upset but you never mention what about. It is normal for a teen to keep a journal and of course parents are going to be curious about what is in it but they should respect you and give you the privacy of writing down your thoughts and feelings and keeping them to yourself. I also think that you should talk to your parents and tell them how you feel and what you think they feel about you. Then you can discuss ways to fix the problems that you all think that you have with each other. Every family needs to have good communication in order to get along and it sounds like yours does not communicate enough!

Answer 3

IM THE EXACT SAME!!

*awkward*

I used to write my diary on my laptop, but soon discovered that my parents were reading it and not telling me [put a camera in my room], so i stopped but i had so much emotion and so much going on [13 is stressful!!!] that i was going insane!

so i started a blog with a different name and stuff so no one would know it was me. you could use www.blogger.com, www.livejournal.com or anything like that

or maybe you could video record it, or text it to your phone.

also, if you have Word then you can make it passworded and have yourself only know hte password, that way no one can read it.

as for your family, tell them to respect you adn your privacy and that right now you just want to be alone and work things out by yourself because it's easier that way. And if tey refuse tell them the least they could do was actually be supportive nad leave.  

Answer 4

I agree with YO!!!! Write your feelings down on paper to your mom and dad. Give it to both of them. No child deserves to make feel like you do. I am sorry  honey you are going through this in your young life. Good luck. Get to writing! It will make you feel better!!  ÃƒÂ¢Ã‚™Â¥

Answer 5

If you need someone to talk to, I am a 19 year old girl from Kentucky....and I will listen. Odds are I have probablly dealt with a lot of the things you are going through. Add me on yahoo....   nicolejustice89 or email [e-mail]. :) God bless

Answer 6

You are doing one thing that you need to do and that is write as you put your feelings down on YA.  You can pick out a sympathetic person here and correspond with them.  Do you have a school counselor, minister, priest, or any trusted adult with whom you can talk?  Here's a number you can call and you'll find the person who answers sympathetic, knowledgeable, and caring:

1-800-422-4453 [push #1 when the machine answers]  

Answer 7

Whatever it is that makes you so sad about your parents, just tell them. I'm sure they'll understand, it's your parents you're talking about. And if you feel that you can't talk to your parents yourself, maybe your sister could sit there with you as you talk, or she could talk.

So whatever it is you dicide to do, just make sure you talk to your parents!!! That is so important!!!!!

Best wishes =]  

Answer 8

i'm so sorry your going thru a hard time

just tell your parents that you were just writing in your online journal.i'm sorry your parents made you feel that way.

they probably thought you were doing something wrong

try talking to them.tell them how they made you feel..

try opening up to your parents,talk to them about how you feel.

..your not an accident !!! dont ever think that!

ohh and ways to find freindsVVVV

find a camp, do a sport, and get yourself busy to get your mind off things.

hope this helped

good luck

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Answer 9

Concentrate on school save a lot of money through 2,3 years find a job then take your savings buy cool clothes and that's what makes me happy just looking good and you have to make differences like change your hair change your clothes!It helps and talk!Please it's very important to talk to anyone!Take a teddy bear and talk to it for hours!And your parents omg like who cares your a person of your own concentrate on your self not on others!

Answer 10

You should talk to your mom and explain to her that you have a journal on your computer and you had trouble sleeping that night and you wanted to write down you thoughts and feelings so you feel better. Just be open and honest with your mom. It will be ok. It is good to let your parents  know about your journal so they do not think you are doing something else.I think your mom will be understanding after all she might have had a diary or a journal when she was a teenager.