Okay, just for the sake of safety, we'll call my crush David. I started liking him in December. I was sitting at a table with him, Danny and Matt and we were just goofing around and joking. I sat next to David (he was on my left) and Matt was on my right and Danny was across from me. We were just talking when David turns to me and says, "So, who do you like better? Me, Danny, or Matt?" I blushed and said, "Well, I like David the best." I flashed a grin and said, "Sorry Danny, Matt. He's just a lot funnier and nicer." We all laughed and that was the end of it. Or was it? Somehow I couldn't get that conversation out of my head. Why did I like David a lot more? It was obvious I liked him a lot more than I should. Then I figured I just had a crush on him.
Let me explain my situation here. David is popular, funny, sweet, a little sarcastic, and everyone likes him. I'm....normal. I'm not a total nerd or anything, I'm just not a prep. He 's not either, he's just as popular as one. Then there's Rita. Rita thinks everyone loves her, but everyone knows she's a conceited little *****. As soon as she found out that I liked David, she set out to get him to like her instead.
Anyway, I told him I liked him in February. (by that time I think I was in love). Actually, I went up to him, stammered, "I-I-I l-like y-you!!" and dashed away before he could say anything. I was so embarrassed!!! I thought I was gonna pass out and cry at the same time! For about a month I avoided him like the idiot I was. After that I had to sit by him in math again. This time I was sure I loved him. (I know it sounds sappy. Oh well too bad. :P) It was kind of awkward. Until he started talking to me. All of math we chatted. It was great! I thought I might actually have a chance of him liking me!!! We hung out and were friends again. It was weird when other people were there (cause they knew I liked David), but otherwise it wasn't.
This was when Rita decided to butt in. When we were walking to our first class she said, "Hey, I know this might sound really weird, but David was talking about you on the bus this morning." I flipped out and immediately asked what he said. She looked around and whispered, "It's really mean. He said he wished you hated him so he didn't have to worry about being uncomfortable around you." My head spun. Why would he say something like that?! How awful!!! For most of the day I glared at him. At my last class I didn't have a group to work in. David called, "Hey, wanna be in ours?" I froze. Huh?? Didn't he just say he didn't like me as a friend? I worked in his group and knew I had been tricked. Rita had said that to get me to leave him.
Anyway, fast forward time. We hung out, blah blah blah. End of school. Last day. When I was about to get on the bus and start summmer vacation, I saw David and knew I might not see him all summer. I ran up to him and stood about three feet away. I held out my arms, silently asking for a hug good-bye. He smiled and hugged me tightly. He bent over and whispered in my ear, "I'll miss you. Have a good summer." He squeezed me for a second, then let go. I had the biggest smile on my face. I nodded and chimed, "You too!" (by the way, Rita was fuming at me).
That night I texted him and we texted back and forth for two and a half hours. We texted on and off for about two weeks, then I went on vacation and lost my cell. After a month of being at my grandma's house I called him on my mom's cell. He picked up and we talked for a bit.
(sorry, I know its long, but I want you to know the situation.) Okay, so. Tomorrow is the first day of school. I was on MySpace and I was just looking at his profile when I realized he was in a relationship. I was devastated!!
First day of school. I have ZERO classes with him. At lunch he walks over to our table and sits across from me. Two of his friends where saying 'Lets go over there.' David tells them to go away. They leave and he just kinda sits there. I finally say hi and he looks at me for about one second then looks away and says real quiet 'hi'. I asked him how his summer was and he says 'good.' We didn't talk then he starts telling me about this concert he went to. (Fast foward time) In an assemby. I was walking up the bleachers and he was just staring at me. When I actually looks right in his eyes he spun around and started talking animatedly to his friend. Do you think he likes me?
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