Urgent Help - My sudden hateful personality - Do I need a PSYCHIATRY?????

Question

I had a long wonderful relationship but I'm a negative person. I constantly think negative and force myself to think worst. My relationship was fine until 2 days ago I kept thinking about my bf's past. I thought so much the relationship ended today. I wrote a really really hateful e-mail to him. Im sure I stabbed his heart a few times.

I did all these for no reason, just because I cannot make myself happy.

I am normal but I can suddenly become really negative and constantly think horrible things.

I'm feeling a tiny better tho I'm sure that my boyfriend is at home dying in his bed. I cant really turn back since I've done it too many of times but one day when I get better Ill go back to him.

I'm thinking of calling a PSYCHIATRIST tomorrow morning but I dont know what to do. I don't have much money and I'm not sure if seeing a psychiatrist is the right option for me.

Can someone advice me on where to start??

I was thinking of seeing a psychologist but everytime someone make me feel better, the next day I feel depress and force negative thoughts in to my head. Now Im thinking that medicine MIGHT work since I've been always against medicine. I dont know?

Answer 1

Sorry this all happnes to you! I know how it is! i am going trought that myself!

there was a time i was against medicine until i've learned that are thougts and emotions are triggered by chemical reactions and electric impulses in our brains and sometimes our brain produces ldepressionost of level of serotonine (among other substances)which its was causes depresion and the electric impulses work againts us as well, medications can help make it better it make take a while, but they'll work at one point.

Get help with a professional! I know its expensive to get treatment but mental and emotional issues are very common and there might be a nonoprofit organization or hospital  in your area .

Good luck and lots of hugz

Answer 2

You sound depressed sweetie.  I suggest you go ahead and see your doctor. He/she can help determine whether you need an antidepressant or to see a psychiatrist.  Also, most insurances will allow you to see a family counselor to deal with working on yourself and your feelings. Focus on being your own key to your happiness and your joy will overflow to those around you. Don't be discouraged.  I'm saying a prayer for you.

Answer 3

Go to a doctor and focus on yourself right now. Stay single and worry about yourself.

Answer 4

You should go and see a therapist before you see a psychiatrist. A therapist will be able to discern if you need medication or if you need to work through something emotionally that you may need to deal with or that your avoiding.

The fact that this has come on suddenly could be that there is something that you need to "talk out".

Therapists are a safe place to share your junk and know that your going to receive nothing but help.



As far as affordability is concerned you can contact your local church or synagogue, school or any community center...they will usually have free services or inexpensive ways for you to get the help you need.

Answer 5

look inside yourself to find out why you are so hateful sometimes. did something happen to you in the past?