I like Girls a LOT, when i drink a lil i love to make out with them and anything is possible, That was the past and now i have a b/f and his our baby. He is never home and im VERY lonely. I dropped my other friend b/c she was still doing drugs and i dont need that crapp anymore im a mother n need to be responsible.
I have EXTREME urges to be sexual with a girl. I know my man would mind. I dont see it as cheating i know it is, But its not as bad as being with a man, Thats even worse.
I have been talking to a few girls but nothing yet. Im not a cheating type of person and these urges are taking over me that i sometimes when we have fights in my head im like LEAVE so i can invite girls over n do things with out feeling guilty.
I love my man but doesnt do it for me, Never home and doesnt make me happy. Im in it because the baby. If it wasnt for the baby i would have been long gone.
I wanna do the righ thing and be a mom and a "wife" a faithful one. I feel like if i try it i'll get it out of the way and it was a one time thing.
How do i make it stop?? should i make the thoughts and urges stop?
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