Urgh advise /opinion please..........?

Question

okay after a couple of vodka's I guess it's time for a hard question/scenario..........quick in-site into life, married for 20yrs, fab husband, 2 teenage girls again wonderful people.....me....bulimic, many issue's with parents expectations (who were very successful - I lead a privileged but normal life, if you know what i mean - anything that costs have been paid by ourselves-not parents!)

What ever i say is wrong, whatever i decide causes an argument, I feel that i could be a better mother, although my therapist disagrees..just think everyone especially me would be better of without me being here..........hate life, hate everything, yet i have everything, what is wrong with me!!!

Daily i search for an answer to carry on.......but as they said suicide is not a choice, it just happens when the coping mechanisms out way the problems......

I have so much to live for but in my mind i think.........no it's not worth the fight........! I really have had enought of everything from family responsibilities to what/how i should behave..........

Answer 1

I haven't got the definitive answer but a suggestion could be to just try and experiment as much different things and ways of living until something clicks, like go out more or less, spend more or less time with the family, have a night with just you and your husband, spend more or less time working, or do what ever you feel might make you happy. Perhaps it might help by thinking just a little bit longer before you say or plan something if this causes alot of tension too, and don't be so hard on yourself. 20 years of marriage with two wonderful children is a great accomplishment, try to be a bit more positive and look on the bright side. I know you'll get better answers than this but hope this helps for a start, good luck!

Answer 2

For every problem there is a solution. Quitting (suicide) is not the solution because it will really have an adverse effect on your family. You would be placing your whole burden on them.  For starters you seem to have a alcohol problem which is the root cause of all problems. Even a little is no good. Read up the WHO (world Health Organisation) site on alcohol which is the true version of alcohol. Alcohol adverts are misleading people into thinking that it is good so that they could sell their products.

It is all up to you. How you live your life will determine its outcome. You are in this situation because there is something that you are not doing right. You need to find the problem and solve it. Read up our article on alcohol.