I've been on a vegan diet for about five or six months now (coming from a poor diet of pure c**p), and my body has definitely slimmed down a lot.
Lately, though - and I have been inundated with some financial misfortune that upsets me - I have been completely crazy to the point where my parents want me to seek professional mental health in a psychiatric facility.
In February, after losing a job, I sank into a deep depression that I perked myself out of around April. I became fully vegan around the end of March, and didn't think anything of it affecting me mentally. I started committing myself to activities to enrich myself: acting in short movies, writing, and taking online classes.
In June, I became very depressed again about the situation. Money was running tight.
In July, though, my mood became erratic - I would cry uncontrollably about subjects I didn't know, pick fights with strangers, I would spend money on things I didn't have, and lament with seething jealousy about what others had that I could no longer afford.
The culmination of these events happened last week, when I started crying at my grandmother's dinner party and didn't stop for seven hours. I found myself at the bottom of a bottle of wine and decided to jump in front of traffic at a busy highway withing walking distance to my house.
I lost my nerve, obviously, but kept crying and praying to God. I am not usually a very religious person - as of late, though, I've become increasingly neurotic and scrupulous.
The pinnacle of this was this past week where I got involved in a physical altercation with a stranger. I'm not a violent person, and usually shrug annoying/stupid people off. It was a typical stupid girlie fight that was over before it started and no security got involved or anything like that. I realized what I was doing while it was happening and walked away - then I cried for the rest of the night about what I had done and I felt terrible about it. We didn't hurt each other - but I was just so disappointed by my despicable behavior.
Alcohol is involved in a lot of these incidents, but I've never been like that before - I'm somewhat of a tolerant drinker and drink socially without any problems.
I'm wondering, though, after doing some research, if my erratic actions are the result of mental deterioration due in part to veganism? Any thoughts?
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