OK, so I have this friend and his name is Jack. He's 16 years old, he's the lead singer of a band, he writes powerful music, he dyes his hair black, has a lip ring, loves baseball and skateboarding, and has a passion for Rockstar Energy Drinks. But simply telling you a little bit about him can't possibly let you know the real, intense, hilarious, gritty, heart-wrenching, sweet, and contradictory Jack. There are not enough words to describe what a completely amazing person he is! Every little thing about him is pretty much a joy to behold, and talking with him is one of the most refreshing, pleasant, and downright heavenly things on this earth.
I love him sooo much! I would literally die for him! He is "my little emo buddy" (that's the nickname I gave him a long time ago and he said he loves it).
But here's the nightmarish part of this story. For the past few months Jack has been suicidal, on and off. He's tried many times to kill himself. One time his best guy-friend found him unconscious, laying against a post by a pier, with blood gushing from his wrists. When Jack woke up he hardly remembered anything except his band, and his girlfriend of the last few hours Kala (whom he later broke up with). This isn't the only time he's tried to kill himself, he's done this many times. Only the grace of God and the vigilance of Jack's friends has managed to miraculously save him after his suicide attempts.
I care about Jack more then is possible to express, but I have d**n well tried to express it! I have poured my heart out to him and told him just how much he means to me, and how I could not bear it if he were to die. I've told him how he is the FREAKIN' CENTER OF MY UNIVERSE and that he means more to me then anything else in my life. But he just doesn't get it. When I tell him how much it kills me to see him like this, he says there's other people in my life besides him, like that's an excuse and like I shouldn't cry my eyes out every day about this (which I do).
The reason for Jack's volatile emotional state is, in fact, love. See, he didn't used to be like this. But one day his girlfriend of two years, Mandi, dumped him and something just SNAPPED, and he hasn't been OK since. Any little thing is now bound to set him off. He's had many girlfriends since, and every time he breaks up with them it tears him up. In case you were wondering, he is definitely a "hottie" and there's about a billion girls throwing themselves at him. Ironically, I'm one of the only girls he knows who really LOVES him and it has absolutely nothing at all to do with his looks. I love his SOUL, and that's the total truth. But he would never think of me in a girlfriend way. And honestly I don't care what girl he's with as long as she makes him happy, and doesn't break his heart to pieces. But they all seem to hurt him eventually and that makes me so sick!
Now, I don't know exactly how much influence I have on him. He does listen to me, and I DID convince him to stop cutting himself (which he used to do frequently) but he just won't budge about the suicide thing. Oh, FYI he's not in any immediate danger right NOW as far as I know. He's ok right now because nothing's going wrong. But I know he's just gonna do something stupid again, and I'm scared to death of losing him!
SO... my question to you all is this: WHAT SHOULD I DO? What should I say to him to convince him that he needs to live? How do I save his life? If anyone out there has any answers, I would greatly appreciate it. And anyone takes a particular interest in helping Jack then e-mail me at writergirljds@yahoo.com because there's some stuff about him I kinda don't wanna say on here.
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