Wanting it to be all over..yet again!

Question

Hi,

Before I start I just want to say I am not suicidal, i know what it's like and I have seriously attempted once earlier this year. I am not going to take my life but I am back in the situation where I am continuously thinking " i wish i was dead" throughout the day.

Is it just me or do you ever feel that your just about managing to cope with it all and you just get hammered down again and again because the depression always returns and each time its just harder to get up because you wonder why bother?!

I see my gp regularly, i have a key worker, a psychiatrist etc I am on anti-depressants, i have been in hospital, i try to keep myself distracted and be positive and do CBT exercises etc etc...sometimes it feels like your fighting a loosing battle and you just wonder if there's really a point.

Does anyone else feel this way?

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Answer 1

yes.all the time

Answer 2

I used to think that every day, whilst I was trying to give up heroin. I suffered major depression and schizophrenia and saw no way out, except more drugs. I was on all different kinds of medication but they never seemed to help, if they made any difference at all then I just felt emotionless. I didn't want to carry on, I thought that nothing would ever pull me out of depression. But sometimes it's just a waiting game, as horrible as that is. Some people don't recover for years, some people never fully recover at all. You just have to make the best of what you've got and wait for something to put it right again.

Answer 3

yes pretty much all the time, look through some of the resolved questions there's some really good advice in there.

Answer 4

The things that we eat have a lot of chemicals in them.  A detox cleanse will help with that and get rid of junk in your body.  There are a few but many of my friends swear by the lemonade cleanse (google it)  I prefer to do fresh fruits and vegetables water and herbal teas with pure maple syrup.  In addition to this do what calms your spirit.  For me it is floating in a pool with the water supporting me...but everyone is different.  Also, this is an ongoing process, consistency is the key and I am positive that your mind will become clearer and more focused.  Also regular exercise helps to rid your body of toxins as well and boosts your feel good hormones.

Answer 5

Like breathing itself.

I feel that way 24/7.