If your boyfriend broke up with you and told everybody that the reason why he did that is because you always wanted to have s*x with him. (note that you were a virgin before you met him and you were 20) After that, cruelly hurt, very fragile some guys abuse you because you're very vulnerable in that period and take advantage of that, and you have s*x with 4 more guys, in a period of 2 years, is it some sort of punishment to prove that you were a bad person and a bad gf and deserved to be dumped by your boyfriend? I really loved my bf, and we had plans to get married, I saved my virginity until I was 20 and thought that I have met the right person. Now I feel dirty,abused and really really hurt.
I went to see a therapist, I believe she helped me the best way she could. But I still feel bad, and I have nightmares and bad thoughts pretty much almost all the time. It's been more than 2 years since I have been abstinent now, and I live in another country than my ex bf, I recently saw pictures of him on his Hi5 page with a new gf, he seems really happy.... I just cannot understand... I came to the point where I don't believe in God anymore.
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