1) I have abnormally strong responses to childhood fantasy movies (i.e. The Secret of NIMH, etc.). I love them but they overwhelm with me with emotion to the point that I have trouble watching. Bridge to Terabithia triggered a huge episode with me. Plus my mother spoiled the ending, making me even more upset by the movie. It's like some movies become so touching they frek me out. Anyways, what is causing tis reaction? It seems so odd.
2) I feel aside from my emotions sometimes. I can feel very depressd but I can feel myself separate into observer and a sufferer. This is hard to explain without sounding nuts. I can feel the depression. But my inner voice feels like it is watching myself feel the emotion and making comments while the inner me feels the pain.
3) I have derealization/depersonalization I think. I feel we are meat puppets walking in some bizarre physical dream called life. ButI feel that there is no point to existence and that reality is some bizarre hallucination that doesn't exist. I know this isn't true, but I experience it.
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