What's My Sexuality ?

Question

Every since I was a kid .. I always had a liking for girls,

whenever we used to play those mommy and daddy games , I always used to play the dad or the male part.

I've always had many crushes on girls...

When I got 13 I kissed a girl , It was amazing !

Lately , I had a crush on this lady, she was hetrosexual but I really was crazy for her , she was 10 years elder to me . I knew that there was no possible way for us to be together but I really liked her so I just wanted the relationship to be as "just friends". Every time I talk to her she wasn't so open we me (which is acceptable).But , she used to make feel guity I was g*y..I also live in a country that "hates" homosexuality or thinks its a crime. Due to which I even felt more guilty. I try to forget about her but I can't , I like her sooo much .

As the feeling of guilt increased , I tried hard not to think about girls and "make" my self like guys ( which I really don't want to ).

I am really so depressed and lonely about this ,

Recently , when I was in an exam , there was a guy who sat right beside me and he kept on touching and rubbing his feet against my foot, I was so tensed and scared but I liked it about 1% . I don't want to live this confusion and this guilt anymore ....

I want to be g*y and free , how do I do that ?

Answer 1

Augh!!

*facepalm*

People; you worry TOO MUCH ABOUT THIS.

Just do what you want to do, and don't listen to the negative things other people have to say? If you can achieve this, you'll see the true answer:

Simply; let your feelings out. If someone dislikes you for WHO YOU ARE, s***w them!

It seems like it's difficult, but it's all really something you need to "go with the flow" about.

Also: NEVER feel guilty. You have no reason to feel that way about something primarily out of your control.

Answer 2

So you mean you want not be be a L*****n?

Try to get close to guys then.(as in friends first)

Answer 3

what country do you live in?

unfortunately you cant change your sexuality and trying to do so will only cause depression like you say.

you are a student? try getting into an exchange student program so your government does not persecute you for this. north america, western europe, Scandinavia... are generally friendly. ESPECIALLY at a university. there is no guarantee you will find someone, but at least you will not be arrested.  

Answer 4

To be g*y and free is like being mexican in southern california without a green card... its impossible to stick it out. I've tried over and over to tell my parents, but, my throat ties up and its not as easy as i think. g*y and free... i like the sound of that

[I used to play the daddy too and if i couldnt be the dad, i would be the dog XD]

Answer 5

move to another place , like America or Canada, until you do that i advise you to keep your sexuality a secret, unless you want to put your life in danger  

Answer 6

don't try and stop your self from liking girls that will just make you feel even worse as for the guy you should of stamped on his foot lol

Answer 7

To tell you the truth i don't really know either. I'm going through the same thing, well not the same thing exactly but i know how u would feel! Everyone has been telling me to just follow my heart but its not that easy. I say do what makes you happy and live the life you want to live. You know that u cant have a relationship with this lady so why don't u try and find someone you can have a relationship with and have a happy life with. No one deserves to be treated like they aren't wanted or make them feel guilty for anything. Find someone who makes u feel loved and wanted. Good luck. If you haven any Questions don't hesitate to email me.