i know it is long but please read.. i do really need some advice about this...
ok so i am 15 and tonight i got posted my results of these tests i took at school and not to be boastful or anything but i thought i did pretty well because i got A's in 3 out of 4 of my tests. so my dad came home late, and i went to tell him about what i got..
he looked at me and said well that's pretty c**p! you should of got A*'s... and he does it every time and i usually don't care what he says and i just ignore it but tonight i got really upset over it all and realized that he i am always going to be a disappointment to him..
so i was in my room, crying, when my mum walks in. i told her what happened and she gave me a hug and whispered to in my ear.. "do you think we should leave dad and go and live somewhere else?" i was completely taken back and i did not know what to say.. and i just went erm i don't know...
back story.. my mum has been a alcoholic for about 3 years now and i believe that she also has depression but she is in complete denial about all of it. as a result of this my dad is having a affair. my mum told me about it a year ago and i know it is still going on because he always gets 'called to work' at random hours and always comes home late smelling of women's perfume. he also does not know that me and my mum know about her. also it is just the 3 of us in our family because basically the whole of my mums side of the family said that my dad was too old for my mum and that he was going to divorce her.. so they.. i cant think of another word other than.. abandoned my mum and turned to whole side of her family against us (as pathetic as it sounds.) and also my dad has been physically abusive to my mum a few times and once or twice even hit me...
but anyway i just don't know what to say.. i mean i personally think that it was wrong for my mum to ask me that and put it on my mind and for her to tell me about him having a affair..
but i don't know.. i mean i could never imagine life without my dad (as weird as it sounds.)
what do you think i should say to her??
what do you think about the situation?
what would you do if you were in my shoes?
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