I really want to find my birthmother, but I'm afraid that knowing me may be worse than NOT knowing me for her. I mean the baby that she gave up seemed to be healthy and happy, but in reality, I am multiply disabled and I have dealt with alot in my life which I'd rather not go into. I am not saying that adoption caused me any of these problems, I just know that parents of any kind hurt when they see their child sick or in pain, and I don't want to find her if my appearance will only bring her pain.
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