What can I do? Im so depressed!?

Question

I cry every single night, last night was bad. I cried so hard that I started shaking, I had to put a hand over my mouth so my mom wouldn't hear me. And I have no interest at all in my life, because theres nothing good in it anymore. I have thought about suicide, but I wont kill myself, and it takes extreme efforts just to get up now, and this is my senior year in high school and everyone has so many expectations for me to meet, but I dont care anymore, Id rather fail, I want to die, but I cant. For some reason, I keep getting up in the morning, even though theres no point. And I feel like Im all alone, and I just dont know what to do anymore. My mom hates me for acting like this, she thinks its immature and everything, and the counselor I used to see, was like my best friend, but she left, and tomorrow Im supposed to meet her replacement, but I dont want to, its all her fault that shes gone!!

Answer 1

Do something out of the ordinary like laugh. Find something funny to watch on television. If you feel like crying, cry, beat your mattress or pillow up, get it out, but do , try to laugh. Be positive about your therapist and trust that it will work.

Answer 2

I hope you don"t do the suicide thing. My son did it 15 years ago and if he only knew how devastating it was for so many people I don"t think he would have done it. I wish I could tell you something profound,. Try to think of someone else and how they feel and get "outside" yourself. If you think of other peoples feelings and how important you are, maybe you can find some ease. I hope you do.

Answer 3

first of all i'm sorry to hear your so depressed when it's your senior year and so many good things can happen in your senior year so don't give up hope. go to your appointment tomorrow and meet the replacement, you know your not going to connect with her right away because you had such a good connection with your other counselor so don't go in there comparing her.. give it some time. relax . breathe.

try to think positive, your other counselor would want you to continue to get better. she has build a foundation for you now it is up to you to continue. hang in there life can be difficult just know that all things pass and this season in your life will pass too. good luck and best wishes.

Answer 4

You need to talk with your mom about how  you really feel, including the suicide thoughts.  I think you need to talk with a professional about that.  Suicidal thoughts are serious things and you don't have to deal with them.  Get some help.

Answer 5

Ask yourself: "Why do I feel depressed, and when did I first start to feel this way: can I associate this with any recent change in my life?" (if so, it is probably situational depression: counselling, such as Cognitive Behavioural Therapy is indicated). Or, was it a more gradual thing, with no apparent cause? (nutritional deficiencies, hypothyroidism, environmental toxicity, or reactions to some medications, etc., becomes more likely as the cause).

Antidepressants work quicker than the following; 2 - 6 weeks, but you may have to adjust dosage, or types, whereas St. John's wort is effective for most people, tolerance doesn't develop, and the few side effects don't occur often, and even then are normally not severe.

It doesn't cause sleeping problems, or weight change, but usually takes at least 2, and generally 4 - 6 weeks to become effective. A recent, independent German double blind study showed it to be as effective as Sertraline (marketed in the USA as Zoloft: a commonly prescribed antidepressant) in cases of major depression, with far fewer side effects, and those were generally better tolerated, with a lower rate of discontinuation. Unlike antidepressants, where sexual dysfunction is a common side effect, it happens much more rarely with St. John's wort (I have noticed no effect in this area).

Remember back to a time when life was full of promise, or a day when you felt particularly good, or possibly excited from a good result. Emotional states are associated with memories, and if it isn't major depression, this method can help.

A multidimensional approach to treating depression without medication follows. All except for no. (7.) are safe to use with medication, but not St. John's wort, because of interactions, and it's sensible to check out anything else first with your doctor.

(1.) Take 4 Omega 3 fish oil supplements, daily: (certified free of mercury) it is best if consumed with an antioxidant, such as an orange, or grapefruit, or their FRESHLY SQUEEZED juice. If vitamin E is added, it should be certified as being 100% from natural sources, or it may be synthetic: avoid it. Also take a vitamin B complex which is certified as being 100% of natural origin; a deficiency in vitamin B9 (folic acid, or folate) is known to cause depression. Around 30% - 40% of depressed people have low vitamin B12 levels. Depressed females using the contraceptive pill may benefit from vitamin B6 supplements. ~~~ (2.) Work up slowly to at least 20 minutes minutes of exercise, daily, or 30 - 60 mns, 5 times weekly. Too much exercise can cause stress, which isn't wanted when dealing with depression. ~~~ (3.) Occupational therapy (keeping busy allows little time for unproductive introspection, and keeps mental activity out of less desirable areas of the brain).

(4.) Use daily, a relaxation method* and/or yoga*, and/or Tai Chi. ~~~ (5.) Initially, at least, some form of counselling, preferably either Cognitive Behavio(u)ral Therapy, or Rational Emotive Behavio(u)ral Therapy. ~~~ (6.) Maintain a mood chart, and daily activities schedule. ~~~ (7.) As options, if desired, either a known, effective herbal remedy, such as St. John's wort, (the strength varies, but the supplier should be using a standardised hypericin content, so follow the directions) or supplements, such as SAMe, or Inositol (from vitamin and health food stores, some supermarkets, or mail order: view section 55).

If 5HTP is used to boost serotonin levels, (which are low in depressed people) it is best taken with a high carbohydrate, minimal protein meal, like pasta with tomato & basil, and avoid protein for 90 minutes, before, and after, to maximise the amount crossing the blood/brain barrier. Also, 80% of people in the Western world have low magnesium levels, and these are known to cause depression & anxiety. Try the magnesium supplement types shown in http://www.real-depression-help.com/ Some of these will be available in pharmacies, or supermarkets. Low levels of calcium, and potassium can also cause depression. Have your blood tested, and correct any deficiencies, preferably through improved nutrition.

An improvement can be noticed in as little as a week, if a deficiency is the cause. Also, iodised salt is much preferable to regular salt (one of the treatments in books on depression is iodine drops). Try to imagine, as vividly as possible, a time in the not too distant future, when you have overcome this temporary setback, and things are much better. *View section 2, on the first 3 pages, and also pages R, C, I, and section 11, at http://www.ezy-build.net.nz/~shaneris  Those feelings will diminish, eventually and vanish, with effective treatment. Suicidal thoughts: see section 5 and contact the hotlines. Maybe your new counselor will be a good friend: it's pointless to blame someone for moving on with their life.