My aunt, whom I have been living with since i was 4 (im now 15), has been acting like a total ***** to me since she woke up yesterday morning and i dont know what i did to make her act that way towards me. i cant explain how exactly she's been acting but its just the the bitchy vibe that i get and i wish that there was something that i could do to make the feeling of rage and depression go away. i am mad because i just wish shed stop acting like that and just ***** tell what the h**l i did to ******* deserve this and i am depressed because i am tired of feeling this way. with her, if its not one thing its another. i just want this feeling to go away. alot of people say that childhood only lasts so long but dang it she makes me want to just kill myself. i think that i do mean it when i say that i wish she'd just drop dead because im tired of this. its like a freakin emotional rollercoaster in this house. one minute were all happy and **** and the next minute i feel like this. i just wanna get out. i want to be successful and pay her off...for skool and all this **** she calls "love"...$50K should cover it, right? its not like she gave me life or anything. i just dont know what to do. there are other people that i could talk to, but i just dont want to. ive been crying so much that i nearly threw up. i am home alone and i want this feeling to go away. any suggestions as for what to do? i just want this feeling to go away. if it wasnt a sin, i would kill myself...i know that there are other sins that i have committed but if i do that one, then i wont be able to ask for forgiveness because id be dead
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