I work in an office but every so often I think about what could have been if would continued to try to a jockey, I go to the racetracks backside on the weekends after the track has closed, their times I don't go for weeks to stop thinking about the issue but im always drawn back to the track. I stopped going to the grandstand because seeing people I know riding in the race made me wonder even more. Maybe in the future Im considering picking up (learning to ride) where I left off but people tell me its not worth it once you have an education/ normal job. My father tells me he glad I quit but tells other I looked good on the horses but he or anybody never helped me get to the next level riding live (not easy) horses but I remember that fateful day, I just walked away from it all. Im always left with the question of what could have been?? I even met the guy who taught my dad. what do I do?? Will I end up where I end up in the racetrack?? How do I reconcille the issue??
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