What disorders are these disorders?

Question

I was wondering if I have some disorders.

I have intrusive thoughts uncontrollably.

I hate the fact on contamination.

I'm afraid of catching a disease by touching a door handle.

I do things repetitively.

I count things.

I'm afraid of certain things such as heights,being alone,.....

I'm pull my hair.

I pick the skin off of my lip.

I afraid of germs ad diseases.Mostly illnesses.

I'm afraid that someone is after me sometimes.

I get scared easily.

I pick scabs.

I broke my mom's glass table because she was out and we were talking on the phone and she hung up on me while I was trying to tell her that I wanted a milkshake.

I get really mad easily.

I get butterflies in my stomach for no reason.

I pray for every little bad thought that I have in my head.

I like being alone.

I am really sensitive.

I am sometimes really depressed over nothing.

I get depressed over thins that haven't even happened yet.

I cry over things that haven't happened yet.

When I take a bath,I continually keep washing my skin.

I also keep putting soap on the pouffe again and again.

I have certain numbers that I don't like.

I believe in bad and good numbers as well as good and bad letters.

I used to cut myself.

I count how many words I put in a sentance,I count how many times I've did something.

I also get stressed too.

I also put myself down a lot.

I think that I am fat even though everyone else says that I am skinny.

I get mad over stupid things sometimes.

I can't stop thinking bad thoughts.

I also stay up really late or used to a week ago.

Some nights,I wouldn't even go to sleep.

I got my schedule back on track but during the summer,I stay up at least until 5:00 a.m or all night.Around those times.

What I mean is that I like being alone at which means that I like to stay to myself but I don't like being at home alone or anything.

What is all of this?

I am really smart though.

I'm not making this up!You guys are being mean.I really do this stuff.I'm not sure why.But I need to know if I should see someone about it.

I'm being very serious here!This is not a joke or else I wouldn't have posted it.No rude answers.Please answer my question with respect and honesty.Thank you!

I guess do want OCD or something because it makes me different but I feel like I'm crazy for doing all of these things which makes me feel bad and stuff.I really do this stuff.

I look up this stuff on the internet and say "I should do this because I want a disorder."But it's not just that,I find myself doing these things uncounsciously.So I really do think that these are more than wants.I think that they are disorders.I find myself doing these things even when I don't want to.I don't want to be crazy though and that's how I feel.At first,I looked the disorders up on the internet and started doing these things so that i could have a disorder.But now it's way more serious,I have bad thoughts when I don't want to,I pull my hair when I don't want to.Is this what I deserve for wanting it in the first place?Al of this stuff is quite torturing now.Is this what I deserve?I feel so bad now.

I repetitively do things because I there's a certain number of times that I do stuff.I can't stop having bad thoughts.I pull my hair even when I know that I shouldn't and even when I don't want to.I used to couldn't fall asleep even when I was sleepy.I don't know how to stop all of the depression.

So not only did I want this stuff when I looked it up on the internet,I actually developed it.How?I don't know.But I'm not making this up,I actually do this stuff because at first I looked it up on the internet and started doing the stuff so that I could have a disorder but now I do this stuff without even wanting to.But should I see a doctor?

Answer 1

 Hey! You have some problem which can be solved easily. 

You need to believe in God. 

Everything that happens for a reason from God. 

Don't make your life so tough and why do you be so hard on yourself? Hurting yourself can be the worst thing to do. It means you not only cant love others but neither yourself!

Never look at people above you in Looks, Status, Wealth - What they have is no good of theirs but what God has given them to borrow, remember God created everyone, no one chooses to be the way they are - that does not mean we become annoyed or angry at God, but be thankful - He is almighty, if you don't love and remember him, he won't love you but still he remembers you. He is all Merciful - He guides whom he wills - You have to put your trust in God. 

Look just pick yourself up - Make something out of your life - Do something - Make a interest - We are all hear on this planet just once - Some people wish to suicide but fail to realise they aren't going to live forever anyway! Just love everyone - Praise God - When your alone tell God how great he is - You cant see him but he can surely see you! The more you remember him he will help you and guide you when you need help. If you reject him and think yourself to be the cause of everything you will never find peace. Just take it that it is decree what happens in everyones life - We have to please him by being patient and grateful!

That way you will find much peace and lots of reward after you die - Then you will wish you spent every bit of your life for remembering God because of the reward levels!

 

Cheer up dude, and love yourself- 

A friend in humanity - Zee :)