Hello. This has been bugging me for a long time. I have to wait, at the least, two years for my brother to move out. But until then, I feel like I still have to deal with him.
On my birthday last year, he let me starve until the evening when my parents finally came home. When I was about eleven or twelve, he tried to threaten me and chase me with a knife all because I didn't give him cardboard to microwave some small pizzas. He sometimes even tells me that he wants me to die and tries to exagerate the situation. He also sometimes yells at me, just for having an "attitude" with him. Sometimes, I think that when he sees crying, it reassures him that I am suffering. He has also blurted out, once, that when he sees me, he just wants to kill me.
I am sick and tired of him, I wish the years could go by faster so he could just move out. Whenever he complains about something I do, and then I try to explain it, he usually comes up with an excuse to not hear what I have to say and ignore me, like "I can't hear what you're saying". He's insulted me many times. He has called me stupid, g*y, a failure, a *****, a f*g, slow, ugly, embarrassing, fat, retarded, spoiled, a waste of space, annoying, talentless, and many other numerous things over the years. It has now resulted to him calling me these things on a day-to-day basis. He will say these things even at the smallest reason, such as if I were to get a drink of water from the kitchen. I think he is the main reason to why I have such low self esteem.
If he saw this, he would probably kill me in my sleep. Or at the least, hit/kick me and threaten me.
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