What do i do ? i want to leave. & runaway. ):?

Question

i'm 14. & i'm a girl .

my mom doesn't want me. She would leave me for days on end alone , & stay @ her boyfriends house. I'd have to find ways to school & places to sleep. I came home one day & she was moved out of the house & into her boyfriends. after a month of dating him, & she's an alcoholic i think. i then moved in with my dad & things were good until my dad got custody of me & my brother. now, everything that goes wrong in his life is our fault, SOMEHOW, SOMEWAY. His & my stepmom's marriage is falling apart because we live here, my stepmom told me she wasn't in love with him. & my dad told me he thought she was insane & they were getting a divorce. i'm expected to be the adult here. it's ******* ridiculous. i do GREAT in school & i get into some trouble, or i used to, but i haven't in a while. & nothing is EVER good enough. I am always doing something wrong, & everything in their lives is my fault. i'm a parent to my brother. & i'm only 14. he's 11. i'm constantly being screamed @. my dad everynight he has rage fits. & go crazy & start screaming like he's phyco. & he'll get in our face & tell us how ungraateful we are. & how he can't handle us.& he understands why my mom doesn't want us. he's starting to drink alot latley too. my stempm isn't home @ night because she works as a bartender , but she thinks he's changing also . my mom used to hit me, & it used to be worse @ her house. she would kick me out @ 12 am. & then punch herself. & say i did it ?! & now that i live here, i thought it would be SOSOSO much better. & it's not. it's like they were being so nice to me as an act to get me to live here ?

i moved here & it's an hour away from where i used to live, i live in florida btw . & i had to start at a new highschool where i don't know anyone, & this is my 14th school. yeah 14th ! & i hate being the new girl. my mom calls me a s**t. & everythingg you can think of. or she used to. she tells everyone how happy she is without us. & my dad tells everyone how he's going crazy with us. & only tells people how bad i am.

i'm really not bad.

all i've ever wanted was for them to be proud of me & love me ?! wtf.

anyways on my question !! !!

if i were to run away , how much money would i need do you think ? & where could i stay ? could you guys give me the all the details ?

& please don't tell me to talk to them, they really honestly don't listen to me. & i'm not one of those kids that wants to run away because i didn't get what i want. this has nothing to do with anything like that. i want to leave because i can't handle this. or them & they don't even want me. so why be here ?

please & thanks in advance.

i have this teacher from last year i keep in touch with , she's like my mom. like a mom to me. & shes told me i was like a daughter to her & she's always been tehre for me because she went through the same stuff. but latley if i tell her anything like text her to email she doesn't seem to care ? like i know she has her own problems but it kills me because i love her so much like a mom ! & i don't think she even wants to be there for me anymore. & i knoww she has her own S**t to deal with but it kiillls me that she acts like she doesn't care anymore.

because the one person i trust , doesn't care anymore.

no one in my life cares about me,.

beingg dead would be better than thiis ! okay i lied, it wouldn't but still ): ): ):

Answer 1

dude i agree you probably shouldn't be at home but u cant run away your just a kid, research for places on the internet and get in touch with a counselor or find an agency for children with abusive parents they will look aftrer you

Answer 2

You need to talk to your school councelor

there is no way your parents can have custody of you

you must have a relative that will take you in

you cant stay with them

you'd need alot more money then i'm guessing who have to run away

you would have no where to stay because its illegal from someone under 18 to live without adult supervision

Answer 3

aww. I'm really sorry 4 u.

i think that if u were to runaway. i would call a friend with a really easy going mom, to let u stay there. just pack everything that u really need, probably a rolling suitcase would be good, if theres a cheap, fast food restaurant near by then go there. u will probably need around 20-40 dollars for food. and i suggest u take a bike or a scooter with u, but just make sure that u leave a note telling them u ran away or they will call the cops and u will go 2 juvie or something, and if u have a cell phone bring it. maybe they will call u and apologize, and u will realize how much they love u. Good Luck =)) god bless and be safe.

p,s. maybe you can stay with a family member that wont tell on you.

Answer 4

Talk to your school counselor hon.

Your dad has made a bad choice in a wife(your step mom) and needs some counseling to adjust to the changes in his life right now.

Next, tell your mother until she quits the drinking, the shacking etc, that you do not want ANY contact with her that she is a sorry excuse for a mother.

Tell your Dad you love him and are grateful he took you in and that you are sorry about his problems with his current wife,but that you love him.

The counselor can talk to him about all of this and maybe help him cope better.I think he is just under a lot of stress hon.

Answer 5

If you are running away with some money and have no place to go, then this is only a temporary solution. I think the better solution is talk to your school counsellor, like everyone else said.

Answer 6

Sweetie,

You're 14 years old.  That's the biggest problem in a nut shell.  It feels like forever to be a teenager.  Not old enough to do anything, but take and take some more. The things about it is this....keep reading these post...you'll read more just like the one you've written.  However some are worse than yours.  Many have no home to go to at all. Their mother is dead and dad is on drugs or vice versa.  Life can be hard on all of us.  Not just you or me.  It's learning as teens how to cope that helps us to overcome obstacles that will always be in our lives.  Yes, even as adults.  It truly stinks worse once grown we have to make our own money to put a roof over our heads, before we eat or drive a car. We have to have electricity before we have cable to watch TV.  Yep, it truly does suck in the "Real Adult World".  All the things you take for granted "Old Dad" has to get out there and work for you to have.  Sounds like he's getting a pretty bad rap, especially with a your step-mom not being happy with him working in a Bar.  He couldn't be very happy knowing she's wanting to leave him.  He's probably torn to pieces, if all this is true about your mom.  I have no reason not to believe what you've said. In order to get help form anyone you have to sit down and stop feeling sorry for yourself.  I do know it's bad to do for your brother all the time, but aren't you happy that you can be there for the "Little Buddy"?  Just think how he'll always look up to you.  I know I look up to my older brothers for being so kind to me and taking care of me.  My parents were divorced to.  My mother wasn't very pleasant, either.

Prepare a list in the order you would like to discuss your problems

with to someone. I suggest a Youth Counselor from a Church.  Any Church of your choice.  As long as it's Bible based and teaches Jesus Christ.  Ask the pastor to help you with your feelings, because you are feeling like running away.  You know it's not a good idea.  You feel let down by your dear friend and teacher.  I believe you will find a wonderful mentor at Church who will be more than willing to listen to you and you'll be included at Church.  Your brother will to.  I believe you'll forget about running away.  If you hurry and have that talk.  You can be in time for Wednesday Night Church.  I'm saying a prayer for you.    

Blessing to you and your family<><:)