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Question

Do I Know?

I realize that I am sitting here

Beside the table you used to sit on, dictionaries near

Not waiting my father to take me home

Not waiting my bed and room

Not waiting what I thought I wait

Not my love, but my fate

When I knew

I dropped another tear

That my cheek burns

And my heart, tears!

Am I waiting a friend?

Whose eyes haunt me every where?

What I still have in my mind from your words

Kill me, stamp my heart

Like knives and swords

Sitting here waiting and afraid

That my father would come first

That the bitter taste

Will return again

And all the words that every night on my tongue I train

Would go in vain

I feel that my life is turning around

Something I cannot know or find

I don’t know if what I miss is really “him”

Or all these are only illusions and fake reasons

I create to tell my soul that I know what hurts

To tell my soul that I know what calls me and alerts

Each hope I find goes like fog

With the second day’s sunray

Each man I think I love

His picture goes the next day

What turns my life into h**l

What insist “me” kill

Is that I am lost

And that I know not what makes my life hard and cruel

And that my mind can’t my heart control and rule

I wrote million man’s name

And all are the same

My love songs all apply

To each one’s eye

My heart cannot count

How many love it carried

How many man it buried

All lived and died in my heart

And all the time my stubborn mind

Prevented me to tell, to give an eye

To each one tried to come

All what I have done

Is to remember hearts

In my heart lived and died!!

Answer 1

quite an interesting piece! very moving. I like the stanza:

Each hope I find goes like fog

With the second day’s sunray

Each man I think I love

His picture goes the next day