Ok, i am 13 and this past feb. my father started a new job, i see him maybe??? every 2 weeks. SO i miss him VERY dearly. neways, i started school today and he left me a three page note, that i only read the first page of b/c i couldn't stop cryin. i was simply a basket case. And in it he talks about my grandfather's wishes to keep the family business going but he has to take a factory job to provide for our family and how it tears him apart to drive to work knowing he broke his father's death wish, and how he wouldn't have to if he and his bro (only family he has left) hadn't feuded and so on and so on. and he signed it, love dad. i can't respond because i can't bring my self to it, and it kills me because i have walked past this note for what has only been a day and it feels like forever and i can't bear to look at it and know what has happened, and how lfe went from everything i've always wanted, to nothing i can barely stand, but i am gunna be a soldier and tough it out, because there's not a dam thing i can do.
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