What do you think. pls critque honestly?

Question

I yearn for something to write. But with not one particular topic at hand I find myself at a loss. For with many topics afloat I cannot set myself to certain.

Love is the obvious of choices. But when within my heart, and even my head, I see that it will never be; and it pains me to bring these feeling to light.

More than once I have found myself wondering where the fault can be found. Is it within my own ability to feign a fondness for one so deserving? Or am I destitute to forever yearn for those who have no merit to it at all. Is it in my conscience mind that I continually make these vulgar, self loathing decisions? Or do they happen by sort of fate and accident. And whatever the case will they ever seize. Will I awake one morning to a fact that everyone else seems to be able to see so clearly. A realization that I deserve to be deserved, and shouldn’t, couldn’t and will not settle for anything less. But until that day I wait; uneasy and honestly unhappy with love.

Waiting not for a storybook "prince charming"; no I came to the unsettling realization that those don’t exist a while ago, I merely wait for the one that makes me happy, even with his faults and even without them.

But what if he never comes? What if because I am foolishly running towards the ill-deserving, I find myself further and further from my "one". If "the one" never arrives will I forever chase after "the two", or will I eventually tire of the game and retire to a lonely but less tiring life.

Answer 1

First you need to find that love you have for your self, truly

Secon, you are not experienced to write about the topic cause its obvious you dont have this type of relationship with yourself, spinning your wheels

Thrird, have fun, things happen in time

Fourth CHILL OUT WOMAN

Answer 2

As long as you live a full life, trying to give love to those who cross your path, not just romantic love, but the love of a child, friend, neighbor, and possibly parent, you will not have anything to regret.

Answer 3

You're not alone.. i feel exactly the same way you do.. sometimes i wonder if it's just that my soulmate is still stuck in another lifetime.. and the only comfort i get is that where ever he is.. he is thinking and feeling the same way too.. and we will re-encounter with each other once again.. in the meantime that leaves me with an easy feeling that i don't have to anxiously await no more in this lifetime..

Answer 4

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Answer 5

two thumbs way up. that was honestly amazing. i'm a literature nerd/rapper and i say you could see the truth in it. you have a good way with words. you got some beauty in you so use it

Answer 6

If you have ever said to yourself, "I want to be a writer, but all the good ideas have already been taken", you need to find a job washing cars.

Creativity feeds on the universe -- it does not whine.

Answer 7

You don't sound as if your any more screwed up than most people.  Just hang in there.

Doug