What have I done?????????

Question

I really need some help

ok well i was going out with this guy, and it was kinda a long distance relationship, i really love this guy and anyways, i dont know what happened but... i cheated on him, with my ex (i spose i better tell you the full story)....

its not like i did it on purpose but it just happened

one moment i was happily swimming in my pool

and next thing i know...my ex is jumping the fence, stripping off and joining me

he was all over me at first... but i freaked out and screamed at him that i have a bf...i punched him in the face and went inside

he went home

20mins later he is at my door apologising.... i dont know what happened but i just thort he looked soo hot when he is guilty...anyways we started pashing, but i stopped him saying once again that i have a boyfriend, he sed that he would respect that...and he left

I told my bf what happened and to tell you the truth i really had no idea how he felt about it coz he kept sayin thing like "you should go *** him" or something like that (i kinda got the feeling he was joking coz i am still a virgin and he knows that....but i was still a bit unsure).....

anyways

30mins later i invited my ex back ova, we stripped down once agen and went for a swim.... this time i was more relaxed and felt as if nothing were going to happen... and i had NO IDEA what was going to happen untill it did.. i thort that we would pash AT MOST, i didnt plan on giving him head but it kinda just happened

well, i had to be honest, so i told my bf, he was really angry (obviously), and i felt soooo bad coz he sed he doesnt want to be with me anymore (i can understand that... i wouldnt want to be with a cheater either)

ive NEVER cheated before and i can honestly swear on my life that it will never happen again... he doesnt believe me tho

i need some help... is there any way that i can win him back... coz im clueless

Answer 1

nope. he's a goner. he will never think of you the same way again.

Answer 2

What?

You started off by saying, "What have I done?" Then you said, "It just happened".

Not to be rude, but you really need to take responsibility of your actions. Do you really want to try to win him back? If you really liked him you wouldn't have done all this.

You should not try to get him back, figure out why you thrive on  the drama, then take a break on the relationship thing to figure out why you did that, and spare others and yourself the grief.

Just being honest.  

Answer 3

ok.. you will never get back with your ex because he cheated on you? right? fair enought... But you then expect your boyfriend to get back with you when you have done the EXACT same thing?? and why on earth would you invite him back over?? you screwed up! and when he was saying "go **** him" he was being sarcastic!

ps... i think you screen name says it all 2!

Answer 4

You shouldn't have treated your bf like that. You should stay away from your ex and don't let him ruin another relationship of yours (if you ever want one again). Don't try to cheat another relationship of  yours, cherish your relationship and don't lose another.

Answer 5

stop feeling sorry for yourself, you cheated, you lost him, its your fault, move on (or get back with ur ex)

Answer 6

Are you really wondering why your boyfriend doesnt believe you?

Answer 7

yes if you are good at what you do best.not in a bad way. bee you and wax him with honey-sty.