What illusions and delusions do you use to keep yourself comfortable?

Question

I recently moved. I had friends and family where I used to live. Now I have no one. What has become real to me is that I really had/have no friends nor do I have family. I had illusions of friends/family and delusions that they actually cared about me. I love you's over the phone from my family have become meaningless. I am mass and I am energy. I am powerless because because I'm poor. If I had the money all I would do is go find illusions to delude myself- entertainments like friends, girlfriend, family, love, religion, politics, internet, TV, money, and other experiences. Nothing is real to me anymore. I may exist, but everything after that is imagination. What illusions and delusions do you use to keep yourself comfortable?

Answer 1

Move back of course

Answer 2

It sounds like you are depressed because you have no support system of people who care about you where you live.

Sometimes that happens in life.   To be surrounded by loving, caring people makes life a lot easier.   But you cannot make people care.   That is no reflection on your worthiness.

You do not need illusions or delusions.  Those are only escapes from life.   You need to focus on what it is that YOU want to accomplish with your life, whether others approve or not.   If you focus on the doing, the appropriate people connections will most likely come.

Answer 3

Sometimes I like to pretend I can fly. All attempts so far have been fruitless :(

Answer 4

i believe there's more to us and i think you're a very unhappy man at least you had a fam and friends some people they don't even have that hopefully you're good looking so you can date as many girls or make yourself believe you're irresistible and try to work hard it's the only way to go from poor to less poor

Answer 5

I know what you mean. You have to make your own self happy. When things get too much for me...hurt too much..I try to pretend things are different. At least during that time it doesn't hurt so much. I also take some medication that helps. When I started taking it..that was the best thing about it...people couldn't hurt me anymore. But..I had to cut down the dose because I also couldn't function. This low dose  helps a little. Ask your dr. for something.You just can't care about people that much. They can usually tell that you need them and for some people that's a sign of weakness. Jane had some good ideas. Also..go over to the Mental Health section with your question. You'd be surprised how many people over there will care about you. You might make some good friends you can email.

Edit..This is funny. I have a rhyme I wrote called "Zero"..like your name! Go to my blog on 360...it's in there.

Answer 6

See kid, the fcked up thing about being a teen is you do not realize that all this is over the moment you finish high school. You are not alone here, most people your age feel just as confused as you. You will make new friends, just give it a little time and be yourself.

As for the money situation, if you really want out. I know I will get 50 thumbs down for this but think of all the opportunities the military has to offer, college, travel, the possibilites.  The military is not just the Army, they have the Air Force, Coast Guard, National Guard, Marines and the Navy. If not just go to a normal local school / college. I get student loans and pell grants to pay for the university I attend. My sister attended college with 2 children, along with her financee that just finished up with him Master's, all finanical aid. That is the beauty of America, everyone has a chance. Just hang in there, things will get better.

Answer 7

Sounds like you've become a nihilist.  It's true that very few things have inherent value.  Things are important to us because we choose to allow them to be.  You need nothing but basic shelter and basic food.  Everything beyond that is just decoration.

Answer 8

Quite a lot of folks find comfort in worshipping a mythical diety.

You do really sound depressed, talk to your doctor or someone else that you trust about how you are feeling. I think when you are in a better frame of mind that you will find that your family and friends do really have a great affection for you.

Answer 9

Seriously, look up the crisis hotline in your area.

http://suicidehotlines.com/

You don't need money to be happy.  Not all the things you mentioned are illusions.  Volunteer your time at places like Big Brothers of America, a soup kitchen, or a nursing home.  It not only makes you feel good about yourself, but you can meet people and make friends.  If you don't like the volunteering idea, join a book club, or take some class like painting or yoga or something a local community college/gym/rec center.  Stewing in your unhappiness only makes it worse.  You are obviously focusing only on the negative.  It's not an accurate view of reality.

Answer 10

I have an ongoing delusion that I am part of all things and that all things are part of me - including nature, other people, animals, etc.  We have an ongoing conversation that is seldomly verbalized but, nonetheless always present.

Sometimes, I find an isolated spot where there are no other people around, and I listen.  I listen not only with my ears, but also with my mind and my heart.  I look for the peace and quiet that is inherent in our nature.  I seek the joy and tranquility of the forests, the clouds, the stones, and the animals.  I feel the flow of the waters.  I feel part of all that is around.  I am no longer separate from those things that are around me.  We are all one thing.  The differences are just an illusion.

Oh, and the other thing I do is drink.