Ok, it seems like everything always just comes to me, like yesterday I got voted class president...WTF, I was ALWAYS nice to people in my grade, but I'm tired of all the attention.
( I had to miss today because I'm sick)
People say, "I've changed, I'm changing"...I'm like how? Lol, then it seems like teachers treat me better than all the other kids, people think I'm cool, they think I'm cute, good looking...I'm like how do you see this?
I guess I have it all, except friends, but I'm so over that part of my life...
I'm just so confused, people love me more than I love myself? It is seriously starting to get weird...
People say that, "I used to be this little nerdy kid, now I'm s**y"...It's all kinda hard to handle right now.
I'm just tired of playing this stupid f/cuking game,pleasing everybody trying to be the nice guy, the popular kid, the goody two shoes...
And I still don't understand why EVERYBODY at school is coming onto me, it's like uncomfortablee, even some of the guys...lol
But I'm tired of all the attention, all I know is I've brought it on myself, making everyone look at me, wearing flashy clothes, and stuff..Even my neighbor got a dirt bike and trys to act cool, because that's what I DO!
And seems like EVERBODY is getting f/cuking jelious of me...I'm like OVER IT!
What do I do...
Do I keep doing what I'm doing? or do I change something?
BTW I'm just naturaly carasmatic, and I guess naturally have to make myself get alot of attention, but it's like, Do I be a nerd? or would I be happier doing what I'm doing now, and have everyone look up to me?
I SERIOUSLY DON'T KNOW...
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